The dreams of being raped by a former boyfriend--came true yesterday when I called the hospital in the town were I lived and have been there three times. Dont remember a single time. The drugs were consumed into my system by the time he took me in. Right now only Kyle and four co-workers know about this and my therapist wants me to tell my Parents :worried They dont even know I'm in Therapy or on Anti-Depressants and to tell them that they didn't protect me enough will rip their hearts in two. I keep telling my Therapist--the more you push for this to happen, the more I will clam up. I dont want to tell them. Yeah they have a right to know but i'm not STABLE enough to tell them right now. Uggh. Just so depressed. On the verge of cutting, not sleeping at all, not really eating either. I just dont know where to turn right now.
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I was a bit confused from your post...did you try to hurt yourself, and is that how you ended up in hospital? Or did your boyfriend harm you and take you there?
Whether you choose to tell your parents about this, or anything, will depend on your age and situation, I would think - are you quite young, or still quite dependent on them? Is that why your therapist is pushing you to talk with them?
It sounds like you could really do with some support right now. Whether your parents are the right people to give that to you will depend on the sort of relationship you have with them, and whether their support is usually helpful...wanting to cut, not sleeping and having difficulties with eating are maybe signs that you are feeling totally overwhelmed and just don't know what to do with the feelings. Has your therapist taught you some practical skills to help you through these things?
Sorry there are more questions here than answers - I guess I just wanted to say I know what it's like to be overwhelmed, and that it sounds like you need to to connect with somebody who can help you get to a place in your head where you feel safe and do whatever it takes to keep you that way.
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If you don't want to tell your parents, then don't. Sometimes sparing people the truth will help them better in the long run. It might even save your relationship with them.
How do the four coworkers know about this? Did it happen at work? Depending on who they know, your parents could find out anyway. Would you rather them hear it from you, or someone else? That's another thing to consider.
It is what a former bf did to me--what he did to me--started my cutting process...
He started out lovey-dovey and then went to abuse--ALL forms.
I live in a different town then my parents--90 minutes away. 3 of the co-workers have been through some of the same things so it feels easier to talk to somebody who knows the pain, anger, hurt, etc then to talk to my parents.
I have therapy again tomorrow so will go through things then.
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Sweety I totally understand i've been there dont tell anyone untill your ready to i made that mistake it came out to my parents when we were argueing and they wanted to know why i was haveing a hard time with something
Sweety u have to find a way to feel safe again for me it was locking myself into a room writing poetry and listening to tori amos.
Again talking to your therapist is a good step just makesure she doesn't make u do somethng before your ready
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Nikki- 26 and on the way to divorce with less then a year of marriage
GF-26
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Dont know where to turn. I need help 
