So, today is the day I miscarried my first baby and also the day I was due to deliver my 2nd.
Although I'm sad about it, I almost forgot until I looked at the calendar. I feel guilty like I should be more upset, but I'm more pensive than sad. I'm just looking forward to putting an end to this year and moving onto a new year that will (hopefully) involve a full term pregnancy and a healthy baby! I'm also wishing the same for all of you on this section of the board.
Best wishes,
Shari
__________________ Happily married; 1 amazing daughter born 12/06. short term weight loss goal: 20lbs by year's end long term weight loss goal: 65 lbs overall
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"I'm not lazy. I'm simply judicious about excess movement." -Jen Lancaster
Wow Today will be hard, i'm hoping you get through it as best you can. Lots of warm thoughts coming your way...take care.
__________________ Kim 40 PCOS/IR/IC/PIH/PTL
DS6yrs-preemie-30w)Twins-Met,Prometrium, Puregon Injectibles DS3YRS
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It's OK to be pensive instead of sad. Everyone has a different way of remembering things. On November 9th (my third due date) I was "pensive" rather than sad, for the most part - and angry at myself because I didn't remember the due date till I had been awake about an hour. Don't beat yourself up; your kiddos would not have wanted you to do that.
don't feel guilty at all. you are going forward with your life just like your tiny ones would want. i hope that the new year and new attitude are very good to you. it doesn't matter what days we most remember our lost babies... they will always be with us. take advantage of the freedom from pain and think positively about how they have enriched your life. (((hugs)))
__________________ Metformin 1500mg, Yasmin, managing IR/pcos with lower carbs
First pregnancy ended at 23 weeks due to incompetent cervix.
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Second loss March 9, 2004 at five weeks
Third pregnancy, Cerclage at 13w
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Fourth pregnancy, Cerclage at 13w
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Here is a big hug for you . I truly understand, November 17th was Nicole's due date and the day I got a BFP with Jamie. This year, not only do I not have Nicole or Jamie, but I don't have Skyler either. It will be a tough day but, you will get through it.
__________________ Gina
Mommy to a beautiful baby girl Victoria Elyse and 1 pampered furbaby kitty Lacey
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Mom to 6 angel babies and 1furry angel baby
"My heart is broken, but not my spirit. My desire to be a Mother is greater than my fear of another miscarriage." Gina M.
Ladies--Thanks so much for your kind words. Yesterday went well and I'm glad the day is over. For some reason, it's making me feel like I can move on a little more. I was dreading it, but I feel better now.
Shari - I've found that the anticipation of anniversaries, due dates, etc. has been worse than the day itself. I am glad you made it through the day OK and shared your thoughts with us.
Double bad day and feeling guilty 
Today will be hard, i'm hoping you get through it as best you can. Lots of warm thoughts coming your way...take care.
to you Shari.
