Mazarin

I am really down at the moment, more than I have been before. This year has been a bad year I have a major problem with kids where I live and anti-social behaviour hell. I am desperate to move, but it's a long standing problem for me.

I've decided I will move next year one way or another.... even if I have to put myself into debt to do it as I cannot stand the thought of another year living here, it's been hell for 4 years.

I've had all the PCOS to get on with this year, still waiting a final diagnosis in November when I have my scan but have also discovered I am a type 2 diabetic.

I am totally exhausted, I never use to be like this but now I could sleep for the whole of England.

I am moody, depressed and snappy at almost everything and everyone to the point I have thought of ending it all.

I am not taking any meds, not even for the diabeties, as we're going for diet control, but although I have made some major changes I am not seeing my BS go into a good range.

I am happy with my GP, but I get really shy around him and don't tell him half the stuff I am going through.... I guess I just grin and bare it but underneath I am crumbling away.

I wrote to my GP to tell him what I was feeling like, and I'll make a follow up appointment this week sometime, take if from there.

I need some time out from work as the moods are affecting me at work, and I just cannot be bothered in my job.

I only share how I feel with a friend, I've not told my parents about the diabeties, or the PCOS stuff and so I need to get some kind of story togeather for why I am taking time out of work as I am just not ready to discuss this with people....

I know I should not worry about others and what they think, but my mum is a renal paitent so I don't want to worry her with my health issues.

choirmissy

Alison,

The blood sugar issues and the hormones don't make depression any easier. If you can afford it, I think it's completely understandable that you'd want to take a short break while you get things under control. You need to be completely honest with your doctor. It's hard to get the help you need if your doctor isn't aware of what is going on with you. I know for me, Zoloft helped a lot with the depression that I started to feel when my IR was out of control. If medication isn't the route for you, maybe there is someone you could talk with to help you get a handle on things. I hope things get better for you. Tickled Pink's depression forum is another great supportive place to talk. (((HUGS))).

Melissa

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