Dammit.
Today would have been my due date.
I'm having a hard time with it for some reason. I think mostly because it was our absolute last chance for another baby.
On April 3, I made a build a bear for the baby. Ever since the miscarriage the bear has lived in the extra room in it's box. I occasionally take it our to hold it. I did that on Friday and started crying.
I told DH that I am going to keep the bear because I just can't give it up yet....
I don't know if I will ever be able to give it up knowing it was for my lost baby.
On Wednesday, DS and I brought 3 blankets to the hospital to give to new mommies.
I brought 3 of them because long ago I had another loss on the 5th of Dec.
And the nurse said my due date was the 4th of December ( for the baby I just MC'd) and I didn't believe her, I think she looked at the wheel wrong. So a blanket for the 3rd, 4th and 5th. It's just my way to remember my babies I guess..
Thanks for listening.
I am so sorry. It was very nice of you to make blankets for moms at the hospital.
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Im sorry.I know its difficult for you right now. My due date will be coming up in a few weeks. I dont know how I will handle it. Also, my friend and I were pregnant together. So at the end of this month she will be welcoming her newborn and I will remembering the loss of my son. But I think on that day I would like to just spend time with DH and reminisce(sp?) on the time that we were pregnant.
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My due date is coming up quickly as well. I am not sure as to what exactly we will do on that day. But have thought about letting balloons go. We bought an Angel in the baby's honor (my avatar) also we are planning to buy a special Christmas ornament for the tree. We also will be adopting 2 Tree Angels for Christmas, a boy and a girl. Those are just a few things we are doing in remembrance of our little one. Though, on my due date..... I don't know what I will actually do... besides lock myself in the "baby's room" and cry.
I am praying for you, all of you. ***HUGS***
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I am so sorry for your loss. The due dates were a very hard time for me too, and I am coming up on mine. I love your idea of donating blankets to the hospital, after my stillborn I made "angel blankets" that I donated to a local hospital specifically for Mothers who had a stillborn or lost their babies shortly after birth. It was very meaningful for me. Be patient with yourself - the holiday season is hard even without having the due date in the middle of it.
Kath
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This road we travel has more bumps then we can sometimes handle....I know the pressure of knowing what could have happened haunts us often...I will pray for your peace as together we complete our path to met with our precious babies again....May God be with you during your troubling times....I will light a candle tonight in your baby's honor....
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Awww, Pamela, I'm so sorry, I wish I had been online yesterday.
December is a bad month for me too, both my m/c are December.
Keep the bear, maybe someday you can pass it down to your DD or a granddaughter and explain the special meaning. It could become an heirloom and a way for the baby to live on forever.
You are such an amazing woman, to make and bring blankets to other mommies despite the pain you are going thru. Some women would curl up and self-destruct in the "it's not fair" stuff, you do special things for other people. I'm not saying you can't or shouldn't curl up with your bear and have a good cry--we all should do that to help the healing.
I am sorry for the way you are feeling. My due date would have been this week as well and to make matters work me and my boyfriend of 3 1/2 years have broken up. So now I am really all alone. But I just wanted to say that I know how you are feeling and I am praying for you.
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Pam- ((((HUGS)))) to you. I am so sorry about your losses. I think it was such a beautiful gesture for you to take the blankets up to the hospital in honor of your angels!
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