One June 5, 2006 I was diagnosed with an ectopic pregnancy after doing a IVF cycle. DH and I were devastated. I did not have surgery. I had two methotrexate injections. It was and still is a very emotional time for me. I have found by reading poetry and collecting it has helped with my healing. Most of the poems about pregnancy loss do not really address an ectopic pregnancy loss. Yesterday I recieved a poem about ectopic pregnancy loss and I wanted to share it with everyone. My cysters have been so supportive during my whole ttc journey. I collect poetry as a reminder of my babies I lost. I am currently making a scrapbook with all the poems I have collected and pictures of the day I found out I was pregnant. I have no sono pictures of my baby since I never saw her on sono once I was pregnant. I did see my babies on sono the day of my embryo transfer a memory in my mind and heart I will never forget. (Only one baby survived the RE said.) This is how I remember her. I know SC has a poetry section. I really wanted to post this in the coping with pregnancy loss section. I hope sharing this helps someone with their healing process. I have collected a lot of poetry over the past few months and I select a few poems to read everyday. (I did not write this poem. The authors name is at the bottom. Someone at work gave it to me in a card.)
In the wrong place at the right time Hoping, praying for such a long time for the someday baby who would be mine Month after month failing the test trying so hard refusing to rest But then came a day when the lines became two at last my dream was about to come true With my hand on my belly I was touching my baby to be and looking forward to the day when you I would see But then came the pain so sharp and so strong I couldn't believe that things could go wrong My baby is growing the heartbeat echoes in my heart but baby was not where baby should start How could this happen, when for so long I had dreamed Please don't take my baby I begged and I screamed Can you not fix this, can you save the life? the pain cuts through me as sharp as a knife They tell me that I will die if it is not done so instead of two I once again become one I will always remember that you wanted to be but you had to go because instead they saved me I loved you so, and I think of you every day my teeny tiny baby who got lost on the way In heaven there is angel of mine who was in the wrong place at the right time. -Kathy Burmer
That is beautiful sweetie, very sweet. I am crying, but they are tears of understanding. Thank you for sharing... do you mind if I post a poem in your thread too?
***HUGS*** sweetie, hang in there.
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Kerr- Thank you sooo much. Some people don't really understand the emotional stuff you have to deal with during an ectopic pregnancy. Even though I knew if something wasn't done I could die I felt(Feel) this horrible guilt and helplessness from having no control over ending my pregnancy which in a normal pregnancy would not have even crossed my mind.
I am so glad I know someone to who has expereinced this too.
Thanks
Jamie
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Hi Kerr,
I really haven't been in hiding,LOL. I have been super busy from school, work, daughter, etc. I am doing ok I had to have a D&C aug.29th and a Methtrexate inj for yet another ectopic pg. So I am currently not TTC but I do go to see my RE to maybe do some of the Diagnostic procedures on my tubes while I am on a break. Other than that I have been good
TTYL
Jamie
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Ectopic Pregnancy Loss Poem (long) 
So Sorry for your loss, i've had 2 ectopics and this poem is so perfect and understanding
