Hey, I was hoping somebody could help me deal with the emotional side of things because I am feeling very defeated, I just feel like life has a grudge against me. Anything that makes me happy life does something to take it away. for example...
I was an award winning dancer... life put me in hospital and nearly killed me from asthma.
I was a gold medal holding gymnast... life gave me schlaters disease that affects joints. Life also gave me benign intercranial hyper tension (pressure on the brain) which affects the sight, the balance, and damage to my spine because the only way of helping this condition is to have lumbar punctures, I have had 5.
The one thing I have ALWAYS wanted is to be a mother... so life gives me PCOS which is going to make that difficult.
I am feeling so low at the moment because of my dependency on medication... I need it to breath, to be able to keep my sight, to be able to keep my movement... and now.... I need it to help me get pregnant... something thats supposed to be the most natural thing in the world.
Life has thrown SOOO many bad things at me in my life... things that you wouldn't even have nightmares about...and everytime something has happened I have come back from it each time in the hope that surely... soon... it will be my turn to have something good for a change because of all the things I have had to deal with... but nothing seems to happen. All this has made me a strong person but this is one knock too many now... I feel back to square one I feel depressed... I feel like I want to just give up
what can I do? is there light for me at the end of the tunnel? because I have been in this tunnel since I was 4 years old... preying to find this light and so far.... nothing
First of welcome to SC hun, you are definitely in the right place.
As for the feeling like life has a grudge against you, i, and a lot of ladies on here will probably have felt the exact same, especially when you've recently been diagnosed and everything can seem new and pretty overwhelming.
I can honestly say being on anti depressants has helped me with such feelings, they arent completely gone, i have off days like we all do, we're only human. Are anti depressants something that could help you? Or perhaps something herbal such as St Johns Wort or seratonin?
I think the best thing to do in all of this is to arm yourself with as much information to understand what is happening with your body, and how to deal with it.
And as daft as it may sound, a positive attitude can go a long way.
Just looking at all of the success stories on here gives me hope that one day i will be a mother, regardless of this stupid illness.
I totally understand how you are feeling, when I found out I had PCOS having children was not even in my plans but it made me think about it and actually made me very ill and I had a nervous breakdown. I just felt like mother nature had made a choice that i would never ever be a mum. The best thing I ever did was go and see a specialist who told me everything I needed to know about PCOS and I finally felt in control. I also had some therapy and was on anti-depressants too. But its not just fertility that PCOS causes, I've had many problems like hair-loss, hairiness and chronic pelvic pain these all can be treated but still caused me much pain and anguish.
I totally agree with Chantelly having a postive attitude about it can make such a huge difference, and i think that feeling like you know alot about PCOS and feel in control can help.
You getting pregnant is not totally dependent on medication, metformin may help but so can things that don't involve medication. The best thing that you can do is be healthy and be at the right weight for your height. Fertilty drugs don't have to be used all the time with women with PCOS. I am currently 38 weeks pregnant with my first baby, I have never taken any fertilty drugs and yes I am a lucky cyster who ovulates regularly but until you have had further tests done you will not know if you ovulate(do you have regular(ish) periods?????)
IMHO I think you need to go and see a specialist who can answer all your questions and put your mind at ease.
If you have any questions PM me and I will do my very very best to answer them as will anyother cyster.
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I am supposed to take anti depressants already for part of my other condition I am supposed to be taking: anti depressants, acetazolamide (benign intercranial hyper tension), 2 inhailers twice a day, allergy tablets everyday, tramadol and coedine for pain.... I am going to be honest... I don't have the money to pay for all these. each thing is £7.10 each and I don't work.
I know this is going to sound stupid... but when IWAS taking all the medication... i was sooooo numb. I felt like my entire body had been botoxed.... I couldnt move my face and I felt out of it all the time, and I just feel like I would rather feel human than feel that drugged up for the rest of my life... I have suffered from severe depression for many years because of the nature of things I have been through but with councilling and stuff I got over it all but now this knock makes me feel like I am right back at square one
If your prescriptions are costing too much theres something called a pre pay certificate, a 3 month one is £27.85 ,i got one for my dad and you save so much money! http://www.ppa.org.uk/ppa/ppc_intro.htm
Can i ask what anti depressants you take/were taking and when/if you stopped taking them? When i first started them, i felt numb for a good 3-4 weeks before i started to feel more human and like myself again.
If you ever need to talk, dont hesitate to email/pm anyone xxx
Can anybody get one of those prepay things? and will it cost me £27.85 even though I have sooo many medications?
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Doctors appointment tomorrow! my fiancee has booked the day off work to come with me which I am soo happy about because I know the doctor won't push me around if he is with me I am going to tell him I want to be referred to a gyne and ask to be put on a medication... thank you soo much for all your help.... will post tomorrow saying how my appointment went xx
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hey there I had my aapointment... went really well he has referred me to a gynae to see whether I am ok o have one of the medications!! I feel soo much better knowing that something is actually happening about it now... rather than just doing nothing and living with it like other people I know thank all sooo much for your help xxxxxx
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thank you again all of you for being here for me! It just made SOOOO much difference to feel like something was being done that its not just "live with it" I went to my appointment prepared to tell the Dr what I wanted to happen... I mentioned the medications and that I had been on this website and done some research about them... and I didnt even have to ask him to refer me.... as soon as I finished talking about the medications he said "well we will need to get you referred to a gynaecologist for that.... so will get that appointment made for you asap" I was shocked.... he was genuinely nice about it! x
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emotional help... 
I am going to tell him I want to be referred to a gyne and ask to be put on a medication... thank you soo much for all your help.... will post tomorrow saying how my appointment went xx
