 Emotional Rant :(
So, we've been TTC a little under a year. I was lucky enough to find a wonderful doctor right off the bat. He started me out with injections and IUI and we got pg the very first try. So, I just thought I was lucky and this wasn't going to be such a hardship.
Well, turns out I had a sepitated uterus and they think that the baby implanted itself onto the septum and wasn't getting enough blood and died at 7 weeks. That was an awful mess that I wasn't prepared for. So, I had a D&C had to heal up for 2 months and then I had a surgery in January to remove the septum. While they were in my belly doing the surgery they found I had a little bit of endometriosis and extra phalopian tubes. They got rid of all that, so right now my uterus should be good to go.
Anyhow, We start injections in 20ish days and I am so flipping scared. All I want is a guarantee that I will be able to have a child of my own one day, but it's not guaranteed. That concept is killing me.
Also! My husbands godchild was born two days ago, so we went to the hospital yesterday. It was so hard for me to smile and keep from crying the whole time I was at the hospital visiting. And then (My husband has a daughter from a previous relationship) my DH kept telling stories about when he had my SD. That made me feel terrible, that some other horrible woman was able to bear a child for my husband and I can't do that for him. I really don't think he cares too much if we have a child together., he'd love me either way. I think he's more worried that I'd leave him if we couldn't conceive.
Between work, money, SD school sucking, Cookie sales, housework, etc, my stress level is so high I felt like I might keel over.
Thanks for letting me rant, I don't have anywhere else to vent, and It helps alot to get it out of my system to other woman who can relate. I pray for all of us that our day will come. I think if I've learned anything out of this so far is to not take anything for granted. | 
