Well, I just have to vent a little. I recently went home (to Ohio from Texas) to visit. My first stop was to see my best friend (who just had a baby). My second stop was to have dinner with a friend (who just found out she's pregnant), and my third stop was to my nephew's birthday party (in which I realized I was the ONLY woman of child bearing age there without child!!!). I come home, feeling absolutely drained and hopeless, jump on my FB to find another friend of mine is pregnant!! WOW!! Really?? How do we cope. I am extremely happy for my friends. I am thankful for my nephew and my niece. I love all of them, but really?? Maybe it's always been this way, but it really seems like everyone in my life is expecting or just had a baby lately (everyone but me of course). Then I have to go through the whole "When is so and so going to get a friend?... wink wink" Try asking my ovaries!! lol
it's like that everywhere, don't worry. i read in an article the other day that pregnant women make up only 1% of the population in america - i laughed out loud. idk where they got their info but it certainly wasn't in my hometown. it seems like every third person i see all day, every day is pregnant or has a baby or small child. it's hard. *hugs*.
when anyone asks me when dh and i will have a baby (which is often) i usually say something vague like, 'oh maybe in the next year or so, who knows...' and pray it turns out to be the truth.
I feel ya! Two of my coworkers/friends just had babies within the past year (one had identifcal twin boys, and the other had a baby girl). We go to get appetizers at least once a week after school (we're all teachers... MORE KIDS!!!). And one of them usually brings her baby and they all say that I can get my "baby fix." It's true I LOVE to hold their babies and "ooh and ahh" over them, but It makes me super jealous that I don't have my own. To view links or images in this forum your post count must be 10 or greater. You currently have 0 posts.
Nikki, I'm from Ohio and now live in TX. What part are you from and where do you live now? I'm from Dayton and went to school in Toledo, and now I live in San Antonio. To view links or images in this forum your post count must be 10 or greater. You currently have 0 posts.
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Both of my SIL's are pregnant. One is going to give birth in February, and another in May. and both of them got married way after me. I'm really happy for them. They really deserve to be mothers, but I don't like them saying every time, that they are praying for me. I just don't like it.
None of them know that I have PCOS..They think that I quit BCP last June, and the reality is I quit it in March 2007. To view links or images in this forum your post count must be 10 or greater. You currently have 0 posts.
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My SIL is preggo just found out today my cousin is prego and about 5 more of my friends. I know someone having a baby from March to July WTH. I am very open about my PCOS my immediate family knows about it. I wanted people to know I was having a hard time so they didnt continue to ask questions about when.
Been the same way for me lately. Really bringing me down.
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I understand how you feel! I will have a new great-niece anyday now and a new niece or nephew next year. And not that I won't love them, but holding them will not give me my baby fix and it wont fix the way I feel-
useless, pitied, and/or resented (especially by my MIL, who even though she's never said, totally makes me think that she wishes my DH would turn me in for a younger, less broken model). Or by my ex-friend, who went through hell to have her four!
Nikki.... I found out the same thing today and I just burst into tears... now I'm just trying to hold them back. On FB and good friend of mine just announces her pregnancy and how much of a damper it was going to be. She got married a month ago to be with her husband (marine) and is trying to finish up school. She wrote on her status "Why does God have to throw my such a curveball right now, especially since I'm trying to finish school?" She wasn't even trying.
While here... my doctor has been throwing me around like a ragdoll... and I can't do anything about it because we're overseas military. She made me go through the process of being rediagnosed for PCOS... and said even "if" I do have it... that she might not let us start fertility drugs until after trying 1 1/2 - 2 years... I think she was afraid of me after she said that... so hopefully starting meds in Jan.... but it just sucks!
I'm so angry. mad. frustrated. jealous. confused. hurt. upset. but most of all SAD. I know it absolutly sucks!
I'm sorry that you have to deal with that...
I hope that it happens for you soon....
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Ugh, I feel your pain. Everywhere I look I see a pregnant woman...the other day I was walking to work and the lady next to me was about 8 months pregnant. As usual I averted my eyes as they started to swell with tears. The person I averted my eyes to was holding hands with a toddler and about 8 months pregnant as well. Big round bellies everywhere I could look. By the time I got to the door I was already in tears.
Additionally, a month after my first miscarriage last year my best friend told me that she was pregnant. She is single and an alcoholic.... she is a wonderful person and to her credit did stop drinking (though she didn't stop smoking) as soon as she found out she was pregnant. In Sept she gave birth to a healthy, beautiful baby girl. As happy as I am for her - and I know she will be a great mother - every time I see her, it breaks my heart a little bit. If my first pregnancy had worked, our baby would be that age... And I feel so guilty for being jealous and sad when I see her baby, like I am a horrible, selfish friend. But I can't help it...and it's impossible to explain to someone who hasn't miscarried or had fertility issues what it feels like.
I'm just so glad we all have this website, to be able to vent with people who understand.
My hope is that we all end up with big round bellies and happy beautiful babies in 2010!
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Jode--- I am from Youngstown and now live in Waco.
Pnksunflower---- 1 1/2 to 2 years!!! What!?! That's crazy. What- we supposed to magically start ovulating just because we're having lot of sex?? Right. That's irritating.
The funny thing is, I did tell all my friends and family about my PCOS. I thought maybe they won't pester me as much anymore, but most of them still ask me. Hello!!! I don't freakin know... lol. The kicker, is my aunt told me her daughter (my cousin) was just dx'ed with PCOS too. She's only 14, and my aunt was laughing at the fact that she's worried she won't be able to have kids. That's not funny!! I really let her have it. She's young, but it matters just as much for her. My heart broke.
Nikki: you're not alone, and it sure feels like you're the only one in the world NOT pregnant when everyone else is around you. That's why SC is such a great site and support.
elizabeth, that made me laugh!! haha 1% my a$$!!!!
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