Elionwhy

This is my first post here and i am completely miserable.

I have major depression and its never been very responsive to meds and therapy helps but...

I've read alot of former posts and know that many of you share my concerns. Talking to other people is hard because i don't really think they understand.

I totally feel like i'm turning into a man. I know, how gross right! The extra body hair is so humiliating. I have to shave my chin every morning and do my side burns like once a week (along with my cheeks sometimes). Plus the stupid acne.

Plus, my last lab tests indicate that my thyroid has actually gone up despite the fact that i've lost weight (not tons, but 25 lbs...) and been taking my meds. The dr. said its not a big deal - somtimes it takes a while.

Still, i just feel so horrible. I feel like no reasonable man will every want to marry me because i'm so gross and will probably have trouble getting pregnate (to me, that is totally optimistic because i know there is a chance i just won't ever be able to).

I know people in the world have it much worse then me. I just hate my life. I have no energy at all and have difficulty focusing.

Well, thanks for letting me vent!

CTCyster

(((Elionwhy)))

I understand- believe me- I actually do. The facial hair that can accompany PCOS can be such a strain on your femeninity. I have said the same thing before- "I feel like a man." It can make you really jealous to see "normal" woman who take their femeninity for granted- how frustrating!

Don't give up on your future! You never know what can happen- I met the man of my dreams in college and married him a few years later. You never know what the future has in store for you- so don't hold back because you're embarassed of your symptoms. I know this is hard to do- believe me- it is a process. Just take it a little bit at a time- and please- don't be ashamed of who you are.

Know that you can count on your cysters here for support!



Aimee

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kryschen

You know, I've met some of those "reasonable men", and I'm sure glad I didn't marry one

My DH took me for what I am, fat, furry, and all. He could care less. In fact, he's quite proud of the fact that I am no longer bothered by shaving in front of him. Plus, the stuff I use makes me smell so sweet!

I used to worry so much about it, too, when I was in college. I had hair everywhere, and, at that time, was a veritabe acne-covered wreck. I made some very good friends, however, and, soon enough, met this fine, strapping young man whom I eventually married. I will not spout some silly platitudes that may or may not make you feel better; I know it hurts. I know how hard it is to feel good about yourself when it seems that EVERYONE focuses on a different sort of beauty. I know how hard it is to start accepting yourself for who you are. I CAN tell you, however, that if there's anything at all I can do, please let me know!

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