feel bad for even asking

hollymlb · 09-18-2002, 01:53 AM

I'm a full time college student with a full time job....I've been fighting for about 4 days now the side affects of ovulation (at least I think it was that) Don't get me wrong I really want a baby but right now it wouldn't be fair to the baby.....the guy is a guy that told me he loved me and wanted me back until his last ex wanted him back. I have to spend a year out of state in 2 years....and truth I don't think it would be fair to any child. At the sametime I could never give a child up....not when I really want to be a mom and basically am just waiting for the father before trying.
I really need prayers here, I don't know how else to say it but I don't want to bring a child into this situation, the would be father is definatly not ready for a child and I'm barely surviving as is....and I live with my mom.
I know miricles happen everyday but if it is my turn for that miricle I hope the angels pass over me and give it to someone who has been trying for a long time and would bring a child into a good situation.

I am not due for AF until end of month so I know my upset tummy is not from a preg....but I usually get sick right around ovulation never this bad but I due.

Bibi · 09-18-2002, 02:01 AM

Hey there,

Don't ever feel bad for asking for prayers. We are here as sisters to pray for one another. And while most of us pray for babies it doesn't mean that the timing is always right. We welcome you and your requests and I commend you for realizing this may not be the most opportune time in your life. But I want you to take care of yourself and make sure you can have more since a lot of us can't ....count your blessings my dear and thank the Lord for them....you are special....as we all are.....I pray for you!!!!!!!!! Bibi

Yolanda · 09-18-2002, 11:06 AM

Don't feel bad about asking for prayers. If you need help, we are here for you. I'll be praying for you, although I'm not exactly sure what I'm praying for. Sorry, maybe it's too early in the morning and I'm just not reading you post right!!! LOL!! Am I praying that you are not already pregnant, or that you won't get pregnant in the next few days? Either way, you know if it's the right time for you. It is truely a good thing not to bring a baby into the world if you can't care for the baby. God bless you, my prayers are on the their way!

kw0602 · 09-25-2002, 12:45 AM

I will pray for you! But always remember that what you have someone else may want. I love you and so does God! And God never makes a mistake. I hope this is not your time.

When I was in Nursing school my aunt got very sick. I drove at 2 hours every weekend to see her. I missed lots of classes but remained borderline with my grades. At the end of the semester, I had a 73 average, 75 was passing so I failed the class. As if that was not devastating enough, the class was not offered the next term. So here it was Nov. and I had to wait until April to retake this class. What was I going to do with that extra time?

It just so happens that I was a double major. I was also getting a degree in psychology. Nursing classes were much harder than the psychology classes. During the term that I had a "break" so to speak, I took 5 psychology class which completed my requirements for that program. My aunt died in February and I was able to be there with her and help with her funeral, that helped me in so many ways. Only God could have had that planned for me. What I saw as bad, turned out to be something good.