Most days, I do so well...but today I feel like everything is unravelling. I have friends that tell me they didn't know so many things could go so wrong for just one person.
The closing on my house was supposed to go fast. The inspector found that my roof had extensive hail damage. I've called my insurance company, and that won't be a problem. But the title is saying that I will probably have to pay for the roof and then get re-imbursed. Not a big deal right? Except that I've been looking for a job and my husband and I are sinking. We really need the money from the sale of the house and soon. My husband gets frustrated with me because I don't know all of the questions to aks when it comes to dealing with the house. I grew up in apartments. My house was the first house I've lived in since I was really little and....*sigh* I forgot.
I didn't sleep last night and I broke one of my computer keyboards today. It's a good thing I have several of them. I smashed it with my fist and the keys went flying everywhere. I'm supposed to go to the doctor tomorrow and try to get this ball rolling, but we still don't have our medical insurance cards from my husbands work. I just want to crawl in a hole and never come out. All I did today was cry and sleep, and I don't really want to be up now, but I know that I won't be able to sleep if I'm not. My husband is out on the road and won't be home until tomorrow sometime.
Sometimes, I just wonder why I bother....everything always seems to be so set against me. My dog seems to know when I'm having a rough day because she won't leave me.
I just wanted to tell you to hang in there and that I feel for you. For a while there I didn't feel like I could take much more and was having a really hard time. It will get easier, I promise. Until then, hang in there and know your cysters are rooting for you.
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ditto hun! I swear life is just throwing everthing at me lately! all I can seem to do is sleep and cry these days!
I have a psych app't coming up, i just hope he can help me.
I don't really know what to say, just that your so not alone, even though inside it feels like you are.
(((((hugs)))))
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I made it through the day, somehow. Here's hoping tomorrow is better....and going to look into getting counselling again. I had thoughts today that I haven't had in years.
Did you know that they actually have a......like an equation for suicide?
Hi
I know exactly how you feel I just feel I'm climbing a never ending mountain never seeing the top. Everything has been getting on top of me as the consultants never solve a condition they just find another one.Recently given major scare, I was referred without my knowledge to oncologist and was contacted out of the blue to arrange appointment, was left hanging from 26 July until 2 Sept for MRI scan then left until 20 Sept for results then told I needed an op to remove the larger tumours as ovaries had increased in size drastically since June.I work in a school and I haven't returned since the new term started as I felt I couldn't cope with it, its unlikely I'll return until after xmas hols in Jan..
I feel that life isn't worth living and it seems just too hard and then everything seems to go wrong. So I can completely how you feel Melissa.
All the best,I hoping I'll get to the top of my mountain soon..
Take care
Becs
(((hugs))) I hope you are feeling better today hun. Just know that your cysters are here for you.
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Hang in there adn be strong, just be who you are, and take it slow if you need to, even if it seems like things have to be done at this very moment. You will pull through, and you'll be able to look back and see that everything will work out. Even if it is the worst day that you could possibly imagine, you are still here with us and everyone else, and we all have our hearts open to help give you the support you may need. Don't give up, just take one step at a time, and look straight ahead. Best wishes for you and tons of hugs {{HUGS}}
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Demora, I'm sorry that life seems so overwhelming right now. Please know that you're not alone. We are here, rooting for you. (((hugs)))
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Thank you all for your support. I am feeling better today and more things have popped up today. BUT I had a good visit with the doctor. She took tons of blood for a series of tests, inluding the work up for PCOS. We decided that with everything else going on right now, it would probably be best to wait on the gyn at least for now. I don't know that I'm completely ready for infertility treatments right now. I'm thinking one thing at a time.
There are some problems with the electrical in my house in Colorado...things I didn't know about when I bought the house and that's going to cost me about $500 to fix, plus the roof needs to be replaced because of hail damage (thank goodness for insurance on that one).
Anyway, feeling better and maybe if I can start getting some treatments going then everything will look up for me.
Hi demora
I hope ur feeling better by now. Life sometimes is so unfair to us. My story is pretty depressing and I keep wondering how come things happen to me.......but then life has to go on.
I was diagonised with a rare type of brain tumor in 2001 and had to go thru 13 hrs surgery with which the Dr was unable to get the whole stuff out. I survived but then had to go thru a miscarriage(PCOS has always high risk of miscarriage), then went thru IF treatments and again in 2004 I conceived and everything was ok only when we came to know that the baby had serious blood disorder(genetic) so I had to go for abortion .It was pain to let the preg go which was conceived after so much of mental and financial hassels.
just two mths later I had my 2nd surgery on the brain tumor ......now trying again to get preg but then the sad thoughts keeps coming .......Just hoping this time things go normal coz we have a 25% chance with every preg having the serious bloood disorder.....but then counting on the rest 75% of being normal.......
With so much on my plate I decided to see a counsellor who had send me to the Dr who recommended Prozac which I am yet to take.
I feel so helpless sometimes but then have no choice. When I think the more worse could have happened but did'nt I feel fortunate.
Hang in there and I am sure u will overcome the depression.
best wishes
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Feel like I'm falling apart.. 
.It was pain to let the preg go which was conceived after so much of mental and financial hassels.
