Thanks Amy and Pink, I'm really good at beating myself up. I am working on that. I really have ALOT going on right now and I may have to hire an attorney (with what $!), to take care of a MAJOR wrongdoing to me by the state of California, and I just got two things in the mail-not good news, and I am really weak right now to take care of business, but I have to, that's life. I spent the day resting, not doing much else, I hate wasting days like that. I think I'm watered out, because I'm missing the caffeine like crazy lol-but that is Soooo minor right now. Yeah Amy, since I have PCOS and endometriosis, it's a double-edged sword if you get my drift, thank you and feel free to pm as well. I don't like entertaining the thought of getting the lap, starting Met, and having too much down time, but I keep believing that God knows what I need and to keep trusting Him, I slip, I'll get up! Two steps forward-sometimes seven steps back...
Anyway, I just say tomorrow's another day, I have a relaxation/meditation/flexibility class at 10am in the morning, hopefully that will be a great start to a better day.
Thanks for caring, I am a survivor, just keeping the faith. Maybe what *I* think should happen--God has other plans! I'll take his over line any day
feeling blue this morning 
I haven't even taken my vitamins yet, so I'll go take em, but then I feel like crawling back into bed, I feel depression starting to hit again. Thanks for reading if you did. I hope it passes, I just want to sleep. I'm down about this lap-do it---don't do it. And I was supposed to start school on the 31st, I want to so bad, time is slippping by, *sigh* dangit not doing well, have a gret day cysters. Thanks for listening to me complain if you did--just not doing well.
