Countrygal520

I have always been an emotional person most of my life. My father would always say you are just like your mother, you take everything to personal. Sometimes I would think that I was just going crazy. I would go from being happy, cheerful, fun to be aroung one mintue to being a mean, grumpy, bite your head off the next. In June I had my yearly physical and my doctor and I talk even more about what had been going on. I had been on Paxil for a couple months since then. And I thought things were turning around. But they are not, if anything things are getting worse.

Sometimes its so bad that I dont want to be around anybody. I was dignosed the begining of July with PCOS and a lot of things started to fall into place as far as the symptoms go. Along with everything else I havent had the best of luck when it comes to men, which makes me feel even more useless. Almost like I am not a whole person, because I am not always feeling well.

No one around me really understands what I am going through and I even heard some of my coworkers say they think that I am making this all up for attention. Why would I do a think like that, I wouldnt wish any illness on anyone, let alone make things up.
If it wasnt for the message boards that I have found lately I dont know what I would have done. It is great to be around people that understand what I am going through.

But anyways, now that I am done rambling, just remeber to keep your chins up ladies, that is what I am constanlty being reminded.

Thanks again for the support.

Kathy

Countrygal520

Jen,
Thanks for the vote of confidence. I do have one really good friend that I talk to alot. He has been a good friend of mine for a good while. More understanding then I thought anyone could be, especially for a man. But he has been away for about a week now so I havent had that support. Guess you dont relize how much you need someone till they are not there for a while. He will be coming back in a couple days and I cant wait. Hopefully my spirits will pick back up some. Thanks again, and if you ever need someone to talk to please feel free to email me Countrygal520@aol.com



Kathy

Lendi

Kathy,
I'm sorry you are feeling badly Depression can really do a number on you, and you're right. Most just do not understand. They think you're just grumpy or sad for a minute. They don't understand the helplessness we go through. I'm glad you have a friend you can talk to. When he isn't available, or even when he is, do come here and talk.
Hugs, Lendi

baps

Hey Kathy, i know the feeling!! i was just reading your email and nodding away to myself. in a way it's conforting to know that other people feel the same way but sucks because it seems so unfair.

i'm having a pretty ****ty day today, just feel like crying but it's hard since i'm at work and have to put on the happy face. i was diagnosed feb 2001, it was a relief to have a name for all of the symptoms, but here i am 1 year and a half later and i feel like i have gotten nowhere. the weight gain has been the hardest part for me because i have trouble accepting myself as a bigger person. i went from 60kg to 85kg, reasonably confident to no self confidence. i exercise. eat well, but don't seem to be able to shift the weight and the cellulite is just revolting. what i have trouble dealing with is that i have changed so much and i have had no say in those changes - it's just happened to me.

that's enough from me, need to compose myself a bit and do some work.

email me anytime: wunnybee@hotmail.com . i'm always up for a chat - no matter the mood