The Man of the Board

Another one days, just sitting here wondering if I done enough not just understanding what is going on wih my wife but keeping myself in check. I feel I can only talk with my DW so much. I hate this disorder I really do. Even with Met and other meds they still only help so much sometime. I am so sick and tired that i am helpless not being able to help more then I do. You can only tell your partner they are perfect so much and no matter that this damn PCOS takes that away a few hours later. I love my wife 10 years this year and yea i got something planed ladies. But will it be enough so she still knows she is my angel. I hope you she knows she is reason for living. You know your told when your younger there is someone for everyone well she is my other half of my heart. ok rant off for now

thejakester

Dude, it's ok man. I hear you loud and clear. Sounds like your doing all you can and still have a good attitude. I have to give Deb feedback and compliments but it brings smiles and sometimes rolling eye's because she does not believe me, but I'm doing my part and its making her relax and ease off the negative self talk. She says she feels bad about her need for reinforcment but I do what I can for her. It seems to be getting better with her medicine. Sometimes she gets testy and I think that means her self esteme is coming back because she is funny. At times though she goes dark and distrustful thinking Im going to leave her again and then we argue that Im not leaving her. Its that part that I cant fix. The past is the past but I just want to move forward. Im back and she cries sometimes but she says its just insecurity.

Man - what can we do but do our best? My gf seems to be ok with that. She sees me trying.

Sweetface

You know Jake, I have been left twice by 2 different men and its been because I was not on the medicine. I didn't know I was getting hormonal again on #2 until it was really late and it was devistating to know I lost a good man because of this stupid condition. Had I ben on medicine I would have not ran after him like a weirdo, but I did. Being left is I think, the worst feeling in the world when your ill, when you don't realize what the hell is happening. My girlfriend had to point it out for me that I needed medicine. She is on the outside and can identify when I get in that space and she also knows Met brings me right out of that needy, clingy space. I know why debbi cries. Once a man leaves even for a short while it can really screw a womans mind and heart. We always fear you'll do it again over any argument that happens that is normal.

I'm getting all worked up again....sorry. I just totally understand your gf. I'm glad you went back to her. Your a real solid man it seems, very mature.