dasos

Hello everyone,

I'm a new poster. I've had PCOS for several years now, but I wasn't diagnosed until 2 years ago. I have battled depression since childhood (I'm 27 now). But lately it has gotten to the point that I don't even want to wake up in the mornings. I was so depressed that I couldn't keep my job. I just didn't have the energy or drive to get up and go to work or to interact with people all day. Having no job led to huge financial difficulties, which just made me spiral downward even further. On top of all that, I am dealing with ending a 5 year relationship. This person was verbally abusive, so I know I'm better off but it still hurts and it's taking a long time to move on. My ex told me that I was strange and that I just wanted to be unhappy all the time. The truth is I really want to be happy but it seems like when I try something pulls me back into the depression. I am trying to turn my life around now. I'm selling my house and using the proceeds to relocate to a new city and try to start over. Although I'm looking forward to the change, I'm still so sad every day and I feel so alone. I've always been overweight, and now I have to deal with this facial hair and hair on my chest (no peach fuzz here, it's dark and coarse). I can't seem to find an economical method of removal. Creams don't work at all, so I've been shaving which leaves sorness and bumps and dark spots. And the only thing the doctors have recommended are BCP (which don't even regulate my periods anymore) and glucophage (which had no effect at all). I'm only 27 and I feel like my life is worthless and I don't know where to turn. I'm sure I should talk to a therapist, but I can't afford it right now. I just needed to get this off my chest. Thanks for listening.

SheriKCMO

Cyster, I'm glad you have a place where you can let it all out. You've been going through a lot! I hope the move is motivating for you and that you flourish in the new surroundings.
Take care,
Sheri

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meglet

i know you said you can't afford a therapist, but it sounds to me like you can't afford not to see one. do you have health insurance? if so can you get a referall from your primary care doctor? if not where are you located? most places (with the possible exception of VERY rural areas) have some sort of pay what you can, or very cheap mental health services available.

if that is absolutely not an option talk to your primary care doctor anyway, he or she may be able to prescribe an antidepressant that may help pull you out of your depression.

it sounds like you are VERY severly depressed and you need to get help and treatment. things can be better than they are, and you deserve better than the constant pain or numbness that comes with depression.