Feeling very overwhelmed and sad

HTW · 06-28-2003, 03:48 PM

Hi. I need to vent, and I could not decide between here and the rant room to vent this. I decided here since I am very sad and I have phobias, panic attacks and other emotional issues.
LIke my sub line states, I feel so very very overwhelmed. I just want to cry and scream and throw something. I have even found myself yelling at my kids. I mean realy yelling even using the f word. I hate the f word. But I am so emotional right now. I hate this feeling. It is like I am in a pressure cooker. I usted to feel this way every day. I was sitting in a corner crying all the time at one point in my life, so just the fact that I am only having this every once in a while. It is AF time for me so I understand that hormones are involved. I an new to PCOS, but obviously it is not new to me. I think I made what is probably a common mistake and went and checked out every low carb book at the two libraires near me. So now I have something like six books to try and decide between. ACK!!!!!! My house is a wreck, and I am just feeling very stir crazy. I am wondering how we will ever be able to afford for me to start eating like I am supposted to. Don't have the money for a Dr. nor do we have any insurance. It just feels like everything is coming down on me all at once. I just hate it when I feel this way. I just want to feel happy again. The silliest thing in all of this is that I am allready missing my tortillia chips. I plan to go on a low carb diet, and I am throwing a pity party for myself that I will not be able to eat Tostitoes any more. I realy realy like them. I eat them with every meal. I just want to throw myself on the the floor, ok the floor is hard, how about the bed, and throw a fit and kick and scream and yell about all of this. I am so on edge everything is setting me off. Kids on skates coming in and out of the house and dogs and cats aaaauuuggghhhh! I know I should be happy that I have children, and I am, it is just I am going off on everything right now. Can you tell that I am very confused and overwhelmed? Thank you for letting me vent, I just wish it had helped me to feel better.
God Bless You and Yours
Hears The Water

SouthernComfort · 06-28-2003, 03:51 PM

Just try and take a deep breath and relax. I too know how you feel. I get in moods where I yell and anything and everything around. Even objects that are not breathing!! Are you on anything for your mood swings? Just know, that you are NOT alone. I am there quite often myself. If you need someone to talk to.....I am here. I will be praying for you! Hugs!

jenlove · 06-28-2003, 08:41 PM

Thanks HTW, for sharing that very vivid image wich describes exactly how I feel on a regular basis. This roller coaster ride we are on is overwhelming sometimes.
I get tired of my friends and family telling me that I need to be more positive and I need to be happier about the things in my life that are good. And I am, but sometimes I have no control over my emotions, and I do and say things I don't mean, I push friends away, family away and even my boyfriend away. Many people think I am a nasty person sometimes, and it sucks, because i too know what it feels like to just want to be happy.
i just got officially diagnosed three weeks ago and right away my Dr. put me on prometrium, and that certainly has only made things even more out of control for me.....I will keep you in my thoughts, and know that I know exactly the way you feel.....