Hey Girls,
Right now I feel so all alone. I don't know what it going on with me. One day I feel fine, and the next day I feel depressed and like I'm a failure at everything I do. I know my hormones are all out of wack and that can explain a lote. I'm starting to feel overwhelmed with my feelings. I want to cry but I feel like someone is chocking me and I can't let my feelings out let alone the tears. I've been off of work since last Friday hopeing that this would be a good time to have some relaxation time for myself. I was wrong about that. I've been down in the dumps for the whole time. All I feel like doing is staying in bed and not facing the world. I just recently started Provera, maybe this has something to do with it. The doctor prescribed me this because I wasn't ovulating. I'm sooooo sickkkkk of this crapppppp!!! I wish that this was a lot easier.
Hey there..I remember when I was told I was diagnosed with PCOS..I was 17..I am 22 years old now..Ive been battling the embarrasment for years now..I have had hair growing on my face since 10th grade..People in school would make fun of me..saying I looked like a guy and such, it would bring tears to my eyes..the hair growth on my body discusted me..the constant hair growth on my legs, arms, chin, and upper lip..I didn't feel beautiful and still don't..everytime I stare into the mirror..I see the hair growing back and I begin to cry..I work at a daycare and children ask me questions about it..I know there children and they like to ask questions..but its still embarassing..I guess its why I cant ever keep a bf because they see it and there like "no i cant be with her, she looks like a guy"...I went to an electrologist to get it removed..it didnt help..i took low dose BC and Metformin and it doesnt help either..I cry every night because I dont like who I am..and I ask why I cant be like everyone else and why does this happen to me..I dont really have any friends in real life who will help me through this..so I have to come to this site for support..I try to stay positive and all I can tell you is to do the same hun..I am here to talk if you ever need someone to make ya smile..cause thats one thing i can do..bring a smile to someones face..just wish I could do it for myself :-/
AmyE21,
Does this every get better emotionally? This is all still very new to me (the whole dealing with the PCOS symptoms) but if you ever need anyone to talk to I am willing to listen as well. Thank you for your support and understanding.
Last edited by malissa_28; 04-08-2009 at 10:56 PM.
I also feel the way you do. Sometimes it's a struggle to get out of bed or to even take a shower. I couldn't deal with living my life this way any longer so I started seeing a psychologist who got me on Welbutrin and well I hope it gets better. I'm lucky that I don't have facial hair but I have noticed my hair becoming thinner and I put on a lot of weight last year (when I was diagnosed). The weight issue utterly devastates and depresses me especially because I can't seem to get it off. I feel so gross and every time I look in my closet and see all the clothes I can't fit into I just burst out crying, I don't even want to go out in public anymore because I feel so gross. I know that a lot of it is in my head but sometimes when your so down it's hard to separate your delusions with reality.
There are so many days where I cannot look in the mirror. My husband says the same things to me, but it is never enough to make me feel beautiful. Even though I have lost weight I am still insecure. I understand what you are going through. It sucks! But you have to take the good with the bad in life and appreciate the days when you are able to look in the mirror and say "you know what, I'm okay." Good lick to you.
