Well, my little one stopped growing about 2-3 weeks ago. I was bleeding at 5wks 5 days, and the u/s showed just a sac with nothing in it. An u/s a week later showed the sac had grown a little, but still empty. Non-viable. The lining was also trying to break down. I was told to expect to miscarry. A week later, still just spotting. Had another u/s, no real progress. The placenta had detached, but my cervix and everything was still at a standstill. I should be 8wks today, but instead I have finally miscarried.
I took the cytotec last night. It was hell, the contractions had me screaming. And they didn't let up, nor have they yet. They just aren't as bad now. I've been taking two vicodin every four hours since before I put the cytotec in... it hasn't been doing much good. But, I can tell when it's wearing off because it gets more painful, so it's doing something. I was only able to sleep two hours this morning, and that was only after 6 hours of intense pain. I passed out more than went to sleep.
I passed the sac early on, it was much larger than I was thinking it would be. It was not broken or anything. It was in the toilet, and I thought about fishing it out to bury it... but decided against it. I regret that now. I really wish I had
I'm glad it's finally almost over. This was dragged out for a really long time. Last time I m/c'ed quickly and naturally, but I wasn't as far along either.
So, now I am still contracting a bit. Still popping the vicodin like it's candy. I have a consultation appointment scheduled for the end of the month to begin repeat loss testing.
In the meantime...
after two years of TTC, two miscarriages, and 6 rounds of Clomid...
I am officially on a TTC break; duration unknown.
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When I woke up from a nap earlier my husband brought me the mail. My sister sent me a sympathy card, and wrote me a letter telling me how sorry she is for what I am going through. It really touched me. I think she's really the only one IRL who can relate at all, since her first child was stillborn. Her best friend is also infertile, and has had multiple miscarriages like me. So at least she gets it, as sad as it all is. So few people do. They think you can just pick yourself up, dust off, and keep going.
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Stephanie, I'm sorry you're going thru this and that you had to take the meds. How are you doing?
I started to miscarry yesterday, but it's really bad today! Mine stopped growing at 7 weeks, which was exactly 3 weeks ago. So I'm glad it's almost over.
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Soy CD 3-7 Evening Primrose Oil Prenatal vitamins
July 05 - October 05 - Clomid w/trigger (no success) 2/10/09 - BFP w/no drugs, surprise! 1st pregnancy!! 2/17/09 - 1st u/s @ 6w2d, hb 114 2/26/09 - Betas 48,000 2/27/09 - 2nd u/s @ 7w5d, no hb, missed m/c. stopped growing @ 7 wks (2/22) 3/14/09 - started to miscarry naturally, Cytotec 3/24
I think I'm okay. I'm still out of it though, very emotionally unstable, hormonally imbalanced, and I've been popping vicodin like it's candy. I can tell when it's wearing off, the pain starts to slowly kick itself up notch by notch.
Of course, with everything that happened, my mind's defense mechanism is kicking in (with the aid of the narcotics) and I am already beginning to forget the pain I was in. I remember the intensity, I don't think you can forget six hours of hell, but I am beginning to forget just how it felt. Like the memory is being safely folded away. Out of sight and mind.
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My DH and I were just talking about the same thing yesterday! I can't believe that my Cytotec experience actually happened to me. I went back and read the post in my signature a few days ago and I can't believe that I even wrote it. I guess it's the brains way of protecting us?
Take care of yourself
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Stephanie - I'm sorry to hear of your loss. Hopefully now the docs will do some testing to find out why you have repeat m/c. I pray you find your answers. (((HUGS))) Take care.
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I feel like you and I are linked....we seem to get pregnant close together and then miscarry around the same time.
My post when I found out I was pregant, I was so excited to see that you were too. I am not so excited now to see us both on this board.
I denied the pain pills, because I felt like it didn't matter.......however this time around I took something for my nerves at night so that I could sleep. They prescribed one for the day too, but I decided that emotional pain will be there during the day pill or no pill.
I just want the one at night to have my mind blessed with silence and not thinking how my body is deceiving me and how my dreams are unachievalbe....or at least it feels that way.
You are in my thoughts....do whatever you need to do to get through this.!
Finally, almost over. 
Stephanie...
