FaeSpirit

Blessings Ladies,

Well, so much has happened since I last posted about my husband and I separating back in 2007.

Looking at my old thread, I never realized just how delusional I was about my ex. How we both thought we were "meant to be". It was all a smoke screen and it wasn't until I helped him move into his brother's house a few days before his GF was to arrive that I realized this.

After a year of having almost no contact with him, except through work (I was working at the same place as him at one point), I am now only in contact with him, as I have officially filed for our divorce.

People asked me how I was, honestly, I was very relieved. I will be happy once this has all past. I didn't realize it as much back then, but I was in complete mental meltdown mode and I didn't see much reason in anything. However, with the dovorce, I can't say the same about him, he told me it was worse then when we separated. I think that's because I actually followed through with what I said I would. Just took a little longer then I thought it would.

I am in a very good place in my life right now and I now have a man in my life that truly makes me happy, I'm not faking it like I was when I was with my husband. My current boyfriend is extremely understanding of everything that I am going through and all he wants is for me to be happy with myself and my life. I've never been happier!

Despite all the bad things that have gone on in my life with my ex, I do not wish him any ill. In fact, I pray for him sometimes and ask that he heals himself with gentle guidance.

So ends a large chapter of my life, do I have any regrets? Of course not! Do I still believe in the sanctity of marriage? Yes. Do I believe it's for me anymore? Maybe, maybe not, only time will tell.

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