I don't post a whole lot, I lurk more than anything, but I have to share what happened.
My fiancé and I had been ttc since March 2004. I'm currently 26 (27 in Jan) and he is 31 (32 in Feb). I was diagnosed with PCOS in Jan 2005, which explained my lack of cycles. I went on the South Beach Diet in March 2007 and have now lost 55lbs. With me not eating wheat products I suddenly started getting my cycles, which my doctor then reconsidered the PCOS and thinks I might be sensitive to wheat instead. She did however keep me on metformin.
We're getting married 1/26/2007 and we had been on a break since March 2007 because of the wedding but decided that as of November that we would start trying again, but no going back to charting or intervention yet.
To our great surprise we found out on December 10th that we were pregnant! We were elated! After trying for 2 years and 9 months it seemed like it was never going to happen!
This weekend I started spotting a little and decided to take a pregnancy test to ease my worries on Sunday night. It was negative. Took a second one hoping for a fluke, negative again. Took another one Monday 12/17 and it was negative as well. Doctors bumped my appointment up from Wed. to Monday at 11. I still wasn't bleeding then but she confirmed that I was likely going to miscarry. I called into work and went home. I started physically miscarrying at 2pm. At about 4pm Monday I had the worse cramps I've ever had and I'm pretty sure I passed the fetal sac, at least it looked like that's what it might have been. Not a pretty site but it was actually calming in a way to see it and realize that it's already, relatively, over.
We were told to wait another cycle before trying again. My cycles have lately been working their way closer to normal (this one would have been 31 days) so I'm hoping this miscarriage doesn't screw up my body too much.
I'm currently just kind of numb to the whole thing but keep breaking down into tears. You name the emotion and I'm feeling it, and I'm sure I will for a while.
Physically I'm doing okay now, although three different people have asked me if I'm okay because apparently I look pale. I'm charting that up to the emotional draining and crying which is making my face look more drawn than normal.
As far as AF is concerned: the worst happened on Monday for sure. However, this doesn't seem right, I just started at 2pm Monday and already here on Wednesday pm I'm down to spotting only...I'm worried that means that my lining was WAY too thin to support the pregnancy. Or is it just that I bled so much of it on Monday that there wasn't much left after that first day to shed? Either way we're waiting a full cycle before trying again, but it worries me a bit.
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BFP 12/11/07 Miscarried 12/17/07
BFP 1/11/08 Ectopic confirmed 1/18/08 - Methotrexate 1/21/08
Married 1/26/08!
BFP 6/15/08 EDD: 2/27/09 (DH's B-Day!)
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Hi! First, let me say how sorry I am that your going through this!!!! Second, I went through pretty much the same thing the weekend before, and I only bled heavily from Friday to Sunday morning but then spotted for about a week after that. It was also my first BFP after ttc on and off for the last five years, but my RE said to concentrate on the fact that I got pg in the first place because a lot of women never even get to that point!!!!! It sounds kind of hollow when your staring pain in the face I know, but I know for me I'm holding on to hope. The RE did say that I will get another AF when my betas go back down to 0, is your Doc checking your numbers at all????? I would definately have them monitored so you know what's going on!!! Anyway, I'm hear if you need to talk!!!!
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I'm so sorry for your loss It hurts so badly to have your hopes crushed like that for something that seemed meant to be. I really hope you physically heal quickly and that your cycles return to normal. Emotionally, we're all here for you and understand the many emotions you're feeling right now, so feel free to lean on us for support whenever you need to. I also wanted to suggest that you remember to keep taking your vitamins, especially iron. Miscarriages really do a number on your iron levels.
I'm so sorry for your loss! I wish you all the best in your marriage, including having the family you hope for. The south beach and other lower carb diets have helped a lot of cysters ovulate, so please stick with what is working for you. I would bet you will keep seeing progress on your health, leading to fertility. But for now, I hope you can just grieve and know that you have friends here who care. We have all felt that sting, and all of the emotions this rollercoaster can bring. (((Hugs)))
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First pregnancy ended at 23 weeks due to incompetent cervix.
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Second loss March 9, 2004 at five weeks
Third pregnancy, Cerclage at 13w
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(((hugs))) I'm so sorry for your loss. I had a mc last year. I only bled for a couple days too. My first cycle after the loss was a little off. After that it basically balanced back out. I understand the numb feeling. I still get that way sometimes. It's been over a year for me but it still hits like it was yesterday. It does get better. I hope your cycle gets back to normal so you and your husband can start your family when you are ready.
First BFP turned into first loss 
It hurts so badly to have your hopes crushed like that for something that seemed meant to be. 
I really hope you physically heal quickly and that your cycles return to normal. Emotionally, we're all here for you and understand the many emotions you're feeling right now, so feel free to lean on us for support whenever you need to. I also wanted to suggest that you remember to keep taking your vitamins, especially iron. Miscarriages really do a number on your iron levels.
