my moods have chased so many friends away. in fact i would go as far as saying the only people i have to socialise with are my work colleagues. as i am only 20 my friends weren't interested in any reason i had for my mood swings etc. all they wanted to do was go out and drink and dance and "pull" a bloke at the end of the night. well when you a size 20, 20 year old and your looking for a man, am afraid it takes you more than one night of flirting to get one. all my friends did was find another pal who will go out and do all those things. "you're no fun anymore helen" "you need to get out helen" "maybe if you lose weight you will get your confidence back helen". i ran out of reason why i couldn't go out. (babysitting my niece, ill, tired, these excuses can only be used a few times). now where are all my friends? three have babies, two are engaged to "the man of their dreams" and one is sleeping her way around ayrshire, scotland. is this the life i wanted? no. would i have liked to have had some of the fun they have had? yes. would i like to know how to be able to have that kind of fun again? yes. when you get out of the habbit, its so easy to forget how to enjoy yourself. at 20, i have one of the saddest lives. get up, get ready for work, travel to work, 10 hours later, travel home, have dinner, watch tele or come on here, go to bed. week or weekend. yup you guessed it. feeling very low again. i was feeling quite good for a few weeks there, but now that i am back at work again, i have gone back to the way i was when i was off with depression. nothing has changed. same sad old life, same sad old job, same sad relationship with someone that will never be mine, same fat body, same bloody condition!!!!!!!!!!
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21 years old
diagnosed feb 1999
suffer from depression, severe mood swings, and i'm fat and hairy!!
started metformin end of december 2002. started gradually beginning of jan and up to 3 a day on 10 feb 2003,
also on sertraline one a day
tranexamic acid 4 a day when i have my period
stopped sertraline 20 june 2003
started xenical (weight loss pill) 22 june 2003
started dianette 22 august 2003 stopped dianette on 31 october 2003
2005 update - not been on for a while. now get the 3 month jag to stop my bleeding.
I've been there...reading your post reminded me of well...me. I know that anything I could say won't help, I just wanted to let you know that I understand how you feel - I've been there. Heck, I'm still there. I know you know it can and will get better, I just wanted you to know that way across the world, there's somebody here who's willing to listen and who understands.
((((((((((HUGS))))))))))
pm me if you ever need to chat
smity
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I am sorry you're going through such a hard time too. I too was once 20 and a size 20. It sucks- but if it is any consolation, I made it through and met and married the man of my dreams. Get yourself out there as much as you can, but be patient and don't be too hard on yourself!
It might sound trite, and I TOTALLY don't mean it that way- but Hang in there- your time will come!
Aimee
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me: 30
DH: 31
DD: *Eleanor Alexandra* 13 months (born 13 weeks early on January 31, 2004@ 2lbs 2.6oz)
Nobody can make you feel inferior
without your permission - Eleanor Roosevelt
Hi Nellie,
I was wondering how you were.
I am sorry you are feeling like this. It feels like life is going nowhere doesn't it?
But it can go somewhere.
You need to higher your self esteem. This is the problem i have. I know i need to do it, but do not know how.
I really wish i could help you.
Sit and think what needs changing in your life,What could improve it.What will make you happy.Make a list.(this is the stage i am at) then go do it. and tell yourself that you are capable of doing it.
more importantly and this is the hardest bit--learn to love yourself. You are worth it you know.
Shame i do not take my own advise eh.
But i have decided i am going to shake this depression, for the sake of those around me.
Love Trace
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My happy brood
Stuart 18yrs old
Philip 12yrs old
Jarred 6yrs old
shayla 7 months
Chloe grandaughter 17 months. In my care (interim residence)
And a husband about as useful as a chocolate ashtray
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I know how you feel, im 27 a size 22 on the bottom & 30 on top, & i get really bad mood swings, my friends txt me now b4 they come around to see wot mood im in 1st. Also suffer from severe deppression, which the drs want to put me on anti deppression tablets but i wont take them.
All my friends are settled down with men & all have children, sometimes i feel left out, feel all alone, but one day we will find that someone special.
But at the momment, im on high because my mother has raised money for me to go & get rid of my facial hair its costing £870 for a 5month treatment, she working on raising the money now to get my arms done, then my chest & back, illbe glad to say bye to the razors & the sore skin.
My mother has been my strenght for the last 10yrs & she wants to start raising more money so she can help other women with PCOS so they can get rid of facial hair.
Well i hope to hear from u soon, take care, keep smiling
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