Gaining Weight

MIgirl · 11-15-2007, 01:14 PM

I'm frustrated and I'm hoping my fellow thin cysters may understand. I've always been small. The only time I wasn't, was when I was pg. I even lost most of my weight after I had DD. Now, over the past few months, I've started gaining weight. I want to cry. Yesterday I tried to put a pair of pants on and couldn't get them over my hips. I fit in them after I had DD, so it's not left over pg weight (DD is 20 months). I feel like a huge, unattractive cow. The problem is, everyone tells me I look fine and they don't believe I'm that big and all that crap. Fine, I now comfortably fit in a size 8 or 10, that's not "huge", but for someone who has alway been a 2 or 4, 6 at the MOST, it's depressing. I have to saftey pin my pants together because I can't button them and I refuse to buy new clothes. I've been trying to eat healthy and be more active, but I'm so tired all the time I can't get myself up in the morning to work out. Which makes me feel worse about myself. My DH says he finds me attractive, but I don't think he does. He likes skinny girls with curves, which is what I used to be! Now, I don't have curves, I have rolls. I feel awful about myself. DH and I both used to sleep in just our underwear (TMI), but now, I'm so self-conscious, I won't undress at all around him. People who are larger and have always been larger don't seem to understand why this is so hard for me and why I feel so disgusted with myself. I thought maybe those of you who are on the smaller side might understand and be supportive. I don't know how to lose this weight! It's around my stomach, hips, and upper thighs. As far as treatment for PCOS goes, I can't tolerate bcp, Provera, or Met. Tried them all. I'm now taking a holisitc approach, and I seem to be able to tolerate that fairly well. I'll take advice or even just support. Thanks for "listening".

sheepiegirl · 11-15-2007, 01:54 PM

I'm sorry you're having such troubles. Have you been tested for IR? I know you said you tried Met and couldn't tolerate it, but have you tried Met ER? Some people find that if they couldn't tolerate regular Met, that Met ER was fine for them.

Do you know why you're so tired? Is it just from normal life and getting up for your daughter in the night? Or are you suddenly more tired than usual? If that's the case it can indicate something else is wrong, like IR or depression.

How many calories are you eating? Even if you are eating healthy foods, you can still be intaking more calories than you need and can gain weight that way. I've heard of some people gaining weight when their kids start eating regular food because they tend to eat the leftover bits so there isn't any waste, which all the little bits can really add up.

You said you're too tired to get up and work out in the morning. Can you do it in the afternoon or evening? I am NOT a morning person, so there's no way I could be one of those get up early and work out kind of girls. I struggle to make it to the 9:45am class at my gym on Saturdays! Or take your daughter for walks? Little bits of exercise (like 10 minutes at a time) can really add up and help.

If you do have IR, then maybe your healthy diet isn't quite right for you anymore. Maybe you need to eat a more IR-friendly diet.

Since I don't know if any of that applies to you, I'm just throwing stuff out there!

bobbysgirl2005 · 11-15-2007, 02:12 PM

MIgirl: Sorry to hear about your recent weight and health struggles. I can relate to what you are going through and feeling. I am a thin cyster, though never as thin/small as you (5'10" and athletic/large frame), and weighed 153 lbs 2 years ago. Steadliy, I started putting on weight and reached my highest ever at 181 lbs! Anyway, I exercised, ate about 1300 cals/day and just couldn't lose weight no matter what. I tried different diets; nothing worked.

I was also very tired, moody and hated my body for not cooperating. Anyway, this October I was diagnosed with PCOS and they put me on Glumetza because of insulin resistance. In addition, my RE that to help manage s/e form Met, to help the disease, and to lose a few pounds that I should follow a strict low carb diet. They said no veggies that grow underground, no bananas, no grains, no sugar and nothing that contains high-fructose corn syrup (which is almost everything). I can have dairy, most veggies, meat, and two fresh whole fruits a day. Let me tell you it is very difficult, but it has made a big difference for me! The side effects from Glumetza were manageable and I am not as tired, not as moody and I have lost 5 pounds in one month.

Remember you also are your own worst critic. When I looked in the mirror I saw a women that was 100 lbs overweight, not just 20+ lbs overweight. I noticed it more than anyone. Also, your DH probably IS still attracted to you. Remember his attraction is also based on YOU, not just your body. Let him love on you!

MIgirl · 11-15-2007, 02:18 PM

First, thank you so much for your response!!!! Okay, on to your questions. =) My test results do not indicate IR, but I do show symptoms of reactive hypoglycemia. I have not tried the Met ER, but the holistic stuff I'm on now is supposed to help with IR, and it seems to be working. I haven't checked exactly how many calories I'm taking in, but I've made an effort to reduce my portion sizes, which I've done dramatically. My DH doesn't know how much to cook anymore! I used to eat twice as much as him and never gain weight, now I eat half as much as him. The only time I have to work out is in the mornings. I work over an hour away and don't get home until about an hour before my DD goes to bed. I spend that time with her, then eat dinner, clean up from dinner, clean up the kitchen, and try to spend some time with DH. Plus we're house hunting, so there is a lot of discussion and trying to keep him from stressing out. =) I'm on Zoloft for vasal vagal episodes and anxiety, so I'm guessing my being tired isn't from depression. I've had every test in the book run for why I'm so tired, and everything is coming back normal. I just can't function! My DD has been sleeping through the night great, so it's not that. I used to be able to get 4-6 hrs of sleep and be great. Now, I have to hold my eyes open until 10, I don't get up until 6, and that's forcing myself. I'm so tired all day it's hard to get anything done. I feel like I'm going crazy since the drs can't find anything. Thank you so much for your suggestions and support, it means the world to me and helps me feel a little better.