Just was curious if any of you other ladies found that it got harder instead of easier as time went by (especially as you got closer to your due date) we just moved in a new house and I miss our baby. I can see her in this house, and all she has missed. I am not sure what my due date will be like, it doesn't help that it is also my wedding anniversary. Everyone else around me acts like I should be over this, but as the due date approaches I seem to be getting more sad and down about our loss. It sounds wierd but I think my body is still confused and thinks I should be pregnant. I even have dreams about the child I lost.
thanks for listening
cysterls
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(((hugs!)))
it sure goes up and down! hang in there.
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I had my ups and downs, although certain dates were definitely harder. My due date was very tough. DH was out of town for work, and I was alone. I think I spent the day crying on the couch in my pjs. Another date that was really hard was the anniversary of my loss. I didn't cry so much as just get really angry. The day ended with me getting into a screaming match with DH in front of my in-laws.
I think its normal to get sad around the due date. And I don't know if I"ll ever "be over it". I will always miss the baby we lost. I don't want to forget her. Those people who don't get it, have probably never experienced a loss before, and I have found its almost impossible to explain the feelings that come with losing a baby.
I hope you find some sort of peace as your due date approaches.
Due dates are hard! My second due date is tomorrow July 22nd. I've been dreaming about a baby all week and last night I dreamt about nursing a baby. I'm not sure how I will get through the day tomorrow. My first due date was bittersweet, that was the day I found out I was pg for the second time. I will say that after the due date passed I felt a sense of relief. The day wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Plan to do something special in memory of your baby on that day.
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Its totally normal i think...and i found i did better surprisingly with the big anniversaries maybe cuz i was prepared for them to be bad...it was the little things that would slam me...and when i look back those were the times me and dh were nitpicking at eachother over stupid little things...my anxiety level was definately up there...
anyway moving into a new house is a big transition for you...i think its only natural that you would be thinking about your baby...those little dreams dont go away... its part of the healing i guess...i hope you have a better day...
Thank you all for your replies. I feel a bit better today although the dreams are still there. I just keep wondering if my baby is ok and if she sees me. I need her to know I love her and miss her but I have no way of knowing if she feels that.
Thanks again gals
Cysterls
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I think ups and downs are totally normal. Looking back, I put a lot of pressure on myself to be pg by my DD. I think I thought it would make the day easier somehow. Well, now that it's passed, I'm more relaxed about TTC and the day was pretty sad.... but no where near as bad as I expected.
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getting harder? 
its part of the healing i guess...i hope you have a better day...
