Hi
I surely believe that PCOS and particularly PCOS and trying to get pregnant can put to a test the faith of any woman... specially when you feel you can control everything, then you discover there are some issues you can control, and others in which you can only do your best and leave the rest in God´s hands.
I am Catholic and I do believe strongly in God and find comfort in the Bible and the teachings of Jesus. However from few years ago, my live has been full of challenges and I am fighting to get back to the level of faith and innocence I had before.
5 years ago I had everything a girl wanted : a wonderful job in which I got to travel around the world, a loving boyfriend who I married in a splendid wedding, a good economical situation, all my family live and healthy. I was really looking forward to the future and my plans to get pregnant, buy a house, continue working in my own company or projects, etc.
Few years ago this changed radically : I had to quit my job because of a new boss who made our live miserable, my father passed away due to a bad medical care at the hospital, our economical situation changed too as my husband lost his job ( fortunately now he found a new one ). I carried on, opened my own business and started trying for a baby ( I was so sad my father will not get to meet my babies, and I certainly do not want that to happen with my mother ).
Several medical conditions arised later on, among them PCOS and panic attacks. My new business was very demanding and it was hard to carry it on, I would only get even with the monthly expenses and unfortunately I was deceived by many companies I worked with ( I guess I was too innocent and now I was faced to the real world ).
Last weekend I made a crisis after nearly 1 year of assorted fertility treatments ( I have changed doctors constantly as many are more interested in the money they will make than with helping us have a baby ). PCOS medicines are so hard to deal with, you know the MET and the hormones and how they affect you : nausea, headaches, feeling energy drained. Plus the hope and later on frustration at every cycle when the PG results are negative. Having also to control my panic attacks... it was exhausting.
One night I was feeling so tired, so sad that I asked to God why he had stopped loving me. Why I had this dream life before and now I am struggling so hard and with so many different aspects : health, business, money, even family.
Deep inside me I still feel I am not alone, and that I need to be patient and to "carry my own cross" as these may be the challenges I have to face to win heaven. I did loose a lot of my innocence and from being an easy going, friendly person, I became a lonely, angry, hiding person. That is not me.
Last night, my husband hug me before going to sleep and told me : I love you, and you know... God also loves you. I was really amazed he told me that only one day after I asked God why he had stopped loving me... I did not mention this to him before so he did not know made that question to God.
I do believe God speaks through other people and through situations. Who knows if there is a particular time for me to get PG, or to solve my money problems, or to stabilize my business. I just know that I have to carry on and trust that everything will come on time, and of course, try to fight to get back to my old self, the person I liked so much to be.
Thanks for reading... God loves you all, too.
God Loves You.... 
