Is God Punishing me?

Manda_Mia_ · 04-07-2009, 02:19 AM

Many Years ago.....I was young and stupid...But I had gotten pregnant and got a Abortion...My parents don't know and very few people do......A Year after that I found out I had PCOS and the doctor told me that it would be Very hard for me to get pregnant naturally without meds and If It did It would be in a once in a lifetime thing...I cryed so hard after that and realize I blew my chance if ever of having kids....This has been many years ago but I think about it constantly and wonder If God is punishing me for doing such a horrible thing?

(I know this is private information, but I really want to hear others POV on this.)

Jashobeam · 04-07-2009, 10:48 AM

Infertility is an effect of abortion. There are punishments from God and there are natural consequences to our actions. I would say infertility after abortion is the second. There is a speaker Dh and I heard back years ago. He had been a male prostittute and his wife had had an abortion. When they got saved and then married they faced infertility. His wife blamed herself for their not being able to have children. He was upset that he couldn't work with youth because of his past sexual offense arrest. In the years to come they were blessed with two boys and an opening to work with youth. God has made it clear we must suffer consequences to our actions, but this does not cut off a future full of blessings after we repent of our sins and are washed in His blood. Here is a list of people who could be in your situation of, "Is God witholding blessings and punishing me." I would suggest a study on thier lives:

Paul- had Christians put to death
David- killed a man, commited adultry
Solomon- betrayed God, chased prostitutes
Peter- denied Christ, cursed
Jonah- disobeyed God, hated those God loved
Elijah- suicidal, didn't trust God
Abraham- commited adultry, lied about his wife, put her in a position of possible bigamy
Isaac- Lied about his wife, put her in a position of possible bigamy
Jacob- lied, cheated
Jacob's wife- stole false gods
Judah (ancestor of Christ)- slept with his daughter in law who he thought was a prostitute, then wanted to put her to death before he found out he was told he was the one she had slept with

Jenny Z · 04-13-2009, 01:28 AM

Absolutely not... there are consequences to our actions, but they're not punishments from God. IMO God doesn't punish us in this life for our actions; otherwise, bad things would never happen to good people.

As far as I know, PCOS doesn't result from abortion, so you most likely had it before you got pregnant, it just wasn't diagnosed.

I'm not sure what religion you are (since some treat it differently), but if you're truly sorry and are truly repentant, God will know your heart (if you're Catholic, I would certainly recommend speaking to a priest, they can point you to the local Project Rachel healing program in your area. Heck, I'd recommend Project Rachel even if you aren't Catholic

).

You've definitely got my prayers; I never got an abortion myself, but I helped a friend get one many years ago, and it still hurts my heart. Keep the faith, God loves us all, even with our faults.

Ihavfaith · 04-13-2009, 01:43 AM

I done the same thing when i was 19 I had a abortion and now I am 28. I had symptoms of pcos since i started my period, but didnt get diagnosed until 2yrs ago when I knew something funny was going on with my body. I often think the same thing but i know that god is a forgiving god so i try not to think about it in that sense. I am a different person than I was when I had that abortion, Im married now and much mature but I cant change my pass. My sister had my neice at 13 and she now also has many pcos symptoms and has never been diagnosed and she is now 24. I look at that as her miracle baby although she was really looked down on because of her age. I know Im going on and on but just wanted to let you know that I have the same issue and our day is soon coming..so keep hope alive. I wish you much success in your ttc journey..see ya around the board..

JoyannaWants2BaMommy · 04-13-2009, 01:46 AM

i feel like that everyday, not about abortions, i have never been pg. dh gets so mad when i ask why is god punishing me, he says he isn't, but i believe in generational curses, and they are talked about in the bible. i believe i am suffering from that aspect.

Ihavfaith · 04-13-2009, 01:47 AM

I done the same thing when i was 19 I had a abortion and now I am 28. I had symptoms of pcos since i started my period, but didnt get diagnosed until 2yrs ago when I knew something funny was going on with my body. I often think the same thing but i know that god is a forgiving god so i try not to think about it in that sense. I am a different person than I was when I had that abortion, Im married now and much mature but I cant change my past. My sister had my neice at 13 and she now also has many pcos symptoms and has never been diagnosed and she is now 24. I look at that as her miracle baby although she was really looked down on because of her age. I know Im going on and on but just wanted to let you know that I have the same issue and our day is soon coming..so keep hope alive. I wish you much success in your ttc journey..see ya around the board..

Anonykat · 04-13-2009, 08:46 AM

God is not punitive - He loves us. He is not punishing you for your past mistake. If you ask Him for forgiveness, He will forgive you. He's not some bully in the sky waiting to strike you down. Trust in His forgiveness. Have you forgiven yourself?

As far as generational curses, those need to be understood in the context in which that was written - Old Testament Law. Nobody now is suffering from a generational curse - we are not punished for the sins of others, at least not by God.

4evryng · 04-13-2009, 12:07 PM

Ask for God's forgivness, forgive yourself, trust in God with all of your heart, believe in him and pray to him because through him ALL things are possible!

divawife · 04-13-2009, 10:48 PM

Absolutely not, God loves you and would never "punish" you in this way. Sending you virtual hugs.

WhitneyG · 04-22-2009, 06:44 PM

I personally believe that God does not punish, that Satan punishes, destroys, hates, etc. It says many times in the Bible that God is all light, in Him is no darkness at all. God isn't capable of bad, God isn't able to punish you. He allows certain things to happen because there has to be good and evil. My church describes it in a way that you have a hedge of protection around you, however, if you sin and allow a hole to open up in the hedge, then Satan can attack you (and believe me, he will).

That being said, there are such things as miracles, and this "hole in the hedge" isn't permanent. God can and definitely does heal. I have heard many stories of women with PCOS having 1, 2, or even 4 children! Don't give up hope fellow cyster. I really hope this helps!

Manda_Mia_ · 04-24-2009, 05:29 PM

Thank you all for you responses......I give you all BIG HUGS!!!!!!!!!!!!

JulieMamaof1 · 05-01-2009, 12:23 PM

I was diagnosed with PCOS at 20. After 2 rounds of Clomid I had a beautiful baby girl. I figured it would be that easy the second time around.....boy was I wrong! I went through a year of treatments and finally turned to adoption. We adopted our second child two years ago and I truly believe that this was God's plan for my life. I didn't feel that during the year of treatments. I had my bible study groups praying that "this time it will work." Now looking back I feel kind of dumb that I was "bugging" God (and having other people bug Him) for something that was not His plan! I have given my fertility (or lack of, haha) to Him. I would love to have another baby growing inside of me.....but I know He has a WAY better plan than anything I could come up with!

Remember we are always learing and growing closer to God. It was in the past and if you asked God for His forgiveness then you have nothing to worry about! Remember He knows everything. I believe that knew you were going to have an abortion (because He already knows your story) and He will somehow use that in your life for his glory! I have never had an abortion so I am not much help but think of all the girls you could help or at least relate too! It has also made you into the person you are today

God loves you no matter what! Please don't be so hard on yourself!

momcrazy · 05-17-2009, 11:01 PM

God does not punish, he forgives. Let him into your heart for forgiveness. We choose certain paths that may seem justified in our current situation and it is only when we are older and wiser that we realize the true choices we have made in our life. I understand, as I was 16 pregnant and had a miscarriage. It was not my choice but I ignored and chose to ignore what was happening to my body. I believe the power of denial can cause such things sometimes. I have been diagnosed for 5 years now, and wishing that God too would open his heart and arms and grant me patience or an opportunity to be patient because there are bigger things to come. God bless you and sending hugs and positive prayer your way.

butterfly-cyster · 05-18-2009, 09:52 PM

For what it's worth I am a christian woman, married to a preacher. We are both sunday schooll teachers, and very active in church.

I am prolife! I totally disagree with abortion regarless of the circumstances. But I am not gonna harp on that you're beating yourself up enough.

The Lord isn't punishing you! Think of this do you know anyone who was a good person a born again christian that got cancer or had AIDS? These are 2 terrible diseases. My great-grandmother married once a saved born again christian that went to church had 5 kids and did countless good deeds for others, she died from colon cancer.
I feel 1 of 2 things the Lord will perform a miracle in you (he still does even this day and time) becasue the doctor said you can't get pregnant, the great physician the Lord Jesus may have other plans. Or the Lord is using "you" and your life situation and how you react to it, to touch another. For instance, my husband works with a man that use to go to church and quit. My husband has begged him to come back and he said he knows he should but don't have time. Well, he was diagnosed with cancer. After he got stable enough from his treatments you know where he was church. The Lord was trying to get his attention and get back to #1 in this mans life, and the Lord succedded (he always will).

No the Lord isn't punishing you! Keep looking up, and remember this verse "every good gift and every perfect gift is from above".

mesha · 05-18-2009, 10:21 PM

Dont forget God has a plan for everyone and does things on his time not ours. I had to wait 9 years before I was blessed. I had given up and stopped ALL my meds and then I was blessed....on his time