The Grace of God

jenniferky · 05-15-2004, 10:56 AM

Hello fellow cysters!

This is a little post to let everyone know how thankful I am for the grace of God! God lead me down the road of wellness when he taught me the meaning of self-control, love, and discipline.

I used to be the most miserable individual in existence. I hated myself more than anything or anyone in existence. I hated everyone around me and I hated my life. The only way I can think of to explain it clearer is that I was in a dark place and I was lost, I lost myself somewhere down the road.

I was so deep in the abyss I thought that no one loved me and that they didn't care for me. I was at odds with my father for many years due to my weight problems I had my teen years and early adult years. My atttitude caused so many problems with my relationships. Many of the friendships I formed in high school have long since disbursed. I have two friends left that I had made that are so great to me!

God's mercies were shown to me many times in my life, but when I turned 28 that is when I started to really wake up after having been a Christian for 9 years. I began studying my Bible, reading Proverbs over and over again-- something of which I felt that is what God wanted me to do.

In November of 2003, God etched Proverbs 25:28 in my heart and made it alive. After that many blessings have been brought into my life. The most precious blessing he's given me is the ability to love others and take a compliment from someone without thinking they have angles. He taught me to love myself and through that love I can lend comfort to others that he's given me.

The last two years have been one of Christ-discovery and Christ-awareness for me. I learned to get over myself and my past-- when I did this I learned that there are others that have problems. I learned forgiveness and from that I was able to forgive myself for all the years of gluttony and bitterness that had built up in my soul and poisoned me and everyone else around me.

I have two great best friends that are close to me. I have two wonderful parents that I have formed a stronger relationship with now. I also have a beautiful and dedicated boyfriend who is the best thing that has ever happened to me in human terms. I have wonderful weight loss and renewing health as my body shrinks. Best of all I know who I am, what I want in life, and I achieve any goal that I set. I am decisive and I can praise God for all this and more!