natzmolko

Hi, i approached my dr 6 years ago (at age 18) as i believed i had pcos. i have had irregular periods since they started, hair started thinning, mild acne, put on weight and could't shift it, low mood etc.
I was put on dianette pill and sent for an ultrasound scan which showed nothing. i was told my blood tests were also normal. I continued on the pill for the next 4 years. During this time my periods were a little more regular but i would still miss a few etc.
I got married 19 months ago and although i am at uni ans therefore we cant start a family just yet- i wanted to start thinking about fertility and stopped the pill etc so that if there was a problem i could start to fix it rather than wait another 2 years. My dr was not interested, saying i was too young to worry about that and there was nothing wrong with me. I changed drs! i have been off the pill for a year now and we have not used contraception- partly as we figured it was highly unlikely that i got pregnant (only had 3 periods in last year) and partly because i feel like i cant be fussy about the timing of having a baby seen as im so desperate!
My new GP is convinced i have pcos, and i have also been put on Blood Pressure medication as i am now hypertensive. He has asked me to go on a low gi diet to reduce my weight (BMI 37).
My problem now is that the more i read about pcos the more convinced i am that i have made myself develop the condition. i have overeaten which has resulted in this. i feel so stupid and guilty because now we may not be able to have children and it was probably completely avoidable on my part. i have tried the low gi diet but after 6 weeks or so i just revert back to chocolate. i just cant seem to kick the chocolate habit and i know i will be diabetic in a matter of time.
I guess i am kinda stuck- all of these emotions whirling round and i dont know how to break the cycle.
i know that my dr will not even consider thinking about clomid etc for fertility until my weight comes down but i seem to have no will power.

Im not really sure if anything i have said makes sense- or even what im hoping to get out of posting this- its just a relief to write it down! I have spoken to my husband about it but he just keeps saying it will be fine- everything will work out- dont stress- etc etc. I know its his way of coping but it really doesn't help.

Sorry- all i seem to have done here is moan!!

thanks for listening
natalie

coolpinkgurl

Repeat after me "It is not my fault that companies are making and selling delicious low nutrition high calorie food that makes me want more!"

I feel your pain, I too find it impossible not to have those things that make me smile, like cheesecake, or my favorite ice-cream!

I ate my way big, and once I really started to pay attention to the fact (like you) that I wanted babies in the future and had to do something about it now I ate my way thin again.

Now is the time to control your future and your destiny, I still think for people like me who find it impossible to give up things like chocolate (I mean come on, I love chocolate, why should I give it up?) then to do the whole eat really healthy and work out for six days and on the 7th eat whatever you want works a treat. My weight has been off two years now (with a hiccup over xmas been of gaining a bit, but its gone now!)

Check out my before and after pics and the fit cysters website too.

If you want to do it you can, your body is actually the only thing in your life you can fully control :O)

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DXD 1998
On Dianette 1998 - March 2008
Back on the Pill Sept 2009 but plan to come off it in November 2009

HW - 90kgs (size 18)
CW - 66kgs (size 12) lost 4kgs and counting! Check out my weekly weight loss pictures in my personal folder!

GW - Back to 60kgs
DS - (Dream Size) Proper size 10

Goals - to be back to full fitness by the time I go to Nepal December 2009

Daily Natural Meds:
Vitex 1000mg