hang in there

manic mess · 10-11-2005, 11:52 PM

Hi cysters!
a couple of weeks ago I was so depressed, I have all of the awful syptoms of pcos and I just had no hope and I didn't want to live very much. I don't know how but I have somehow slipped out of my funk, my symptoms are all just as bad as they were before but I have forced myself to try to not focus on all of my bad body parts.
I am trying to limit myself to hating only one part of myself at a time, and even then trying to take it easier on myself. Its bad enough dealing with all of these physical symptoms. Try not to hate yourself too much in one sitting. Its just too much for a person to handle.
I have a major problem because I have hirsuitism I'm fat. scalp hair loss, cystic acne, and I also have psoriasis which gets awful in the winter. So on top of dealing with the bogus pcos stuff I also have scaly dead skin flaking off in big chunks from my scalp and elbows. Sometimes in a dry winter I will get scaley spots all oround my body. I feel like totally depressed.
I have not been taking proper care of myself because I am too busy smoking weed and drinking. A lot of my problems can be alieved with healthy habits. Of course i also have an eating disorder as a compulsive over eater. I have not yet taken any real steps to change my habits and my health but I'm working on it. Just wanted to share that with all y'all. Good days with the bad days, your depression can stop, it doesn't have to get worse and worse,

omcv · 10-11-2005, 11:56 PM

Good for you for taking positive steps ... recently I made myself go to Mental Health for help. it is going to be a long road but it is a must that I get help.

A.T. · 10-12-2005, 12:02 AM

Have you thought about utilizing some resources in your area? Like a mental health clinic? I understand the effects of depression, I have been hospitalized for suicide attempts and for just general depression. My husband is also manic depressive. I am completely off meds and learning to cope in positive ways. My husband has been stable on meds. for some time. He has no health insurance, but gets help through a local clinic servicing people in the county we live in. I didn't have insurance at one point, but got help. Please, you do not have to live like this! Depression can bring you down to the depths of hell, I know! If you want to get help, contact your local health department, it's a good place to start. Hang in there!

nicole47 · 10-12-2005, 12:07 AM

Ugh-- Boston gives me scaley skin in the winter too (under my arms and on my stomach-- basically anywhere my skin touches itself). So far it's been diagnosed as at least 3 different things and I've given up on it because it goes away whenever I leave New England for a few days (except NYC), and we're moving to TX in a year.

Good luck on working in those healthy habits! And don't ever be afraid to ask for help.

Oh, and there's a petite light haired woman at Vidal Sassoon on Newbury St. (I don't know her name, but she was cutting hair diagonally from the student working on me) who did amazing things to a couple of older women who came in with really thin hair. When they went out you would never know they'd come in with their scalps showing! I don't know her name but she looks a lot like the petite woman they've got working there who does the hair dying.

TickledPink · 10-12-2005, 03:47 AM

best of luck to you!

I was recently in a huge funk because a nutty doc gave me some meds that you should never give someone with high anxiety! (wellbutrin) I found a great psychiatrist who adjusted my meds and we talked for over an hour and I am going back to see him again! I feel pretty good right now!

You just need to find what works for you!

Penelope Pitstop · 10-12-2005, 07:05 PM

Can really relate to how you feel about your symptons I have all those and more.. I hope you start feeling better soon
(Hugs)