I dreamt of you last night, in my dreams I held you tight. Absolutely full of grace, I knew I finally found my place. You were so perfect, healthy and alive, your daddy and I just stared at you and cried.

I counted your long fingers and tiny little toes, kissed your sweet little button nose. I called you by your name, and knew my life would never be the same. My pain was gone and I ached no more. It was just a nightmare, I missed you no more.

Safe in my arms I held you close, I hummed soft lullabies in your ear and promised you the world my dear. When I gave you to your daddy and he just smiled at you, you held his finger and I knew it was just too good to be true.

But I clung to that dream as long as I could, I seen your face, I felt your weight, I heard your cries and I seen you smile. I knew you my child, so deep and true... and I knew that I would wake up without you.

In my dream life was surreal, it was perfect and happy and you were alive and real. I knew that your daddy and I finally had God's loving grace, and I awoke with tears running down my face.

My sweet Angel, I wish I could have awoken with you in my arms, smiling up at me with all your sweet charm. But for now I just keep dreaming and praying to God each night, that he will tuck you into bed and kiss you softly goodnight.

Until that time when God calls me home, I try to carry on without you, in hope that one day I will ache no more. When I finally meet you, I can only imagine that incredible moment, when I can wrap my arms around you and together, forever we will be.

I love you Angel
Happy Birthday
Love, Mommy
1/24/2007