I had vaginal bleeding for 2 days and then was accompanied by excrutiating cramps that were about a 10 on the scale. Went to my nearest ER which was about 15 minutes away and sat there for 3 hours and then they decide to send me to my actually birthing ER. All the way to the hospital we drove 80mph because of the lower abdomen and back pain and i felt something pass right through me and then i just knew it was a miscarriage The hospital is almost an hour away mind you and once i got there i had to got to the bathroom and in my undies was a blob of jelly which was the sac. They gave me a shot for pain and i felt so much relief. On our way from the hospital BF was very upset and he said "its not good to bottle things up inside ya know" . I was so drugged up it didnt phase me at all and now i guess after taking almost 4 yrs to concieve it was hard to face the fact that there was even a baby in there. I was only 11 wks and never even made it long enough to get my first ultrasound which was a wk away.
Tammy
Oh hon, words can't express how truly sorry I am for your loss. Your experience is so similar to mine...my heart goes out to you and your BF. When you are ready you will let it out. Give yourself time to feel however you may feel. It sounds like BF is a good guy, lean on him. You two lean on each other. Here, we all understand how you feel...we are all willing to listen and help in any way we can. You can lean on us too.
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Tammy (((hugs))) experiencing a m/c in any fashion is hard and something you will never forget. So sorry that you had to go through it the way you did! We here all understand you feelings and know how it is to have been trying for so long and for it to end badly. Glad that you have BF to lean and together you will be able to meddle you way through your stages of grief (even though they may at different times).
Having this board to come to and get support is the best! I'm in southeastern MI about 40 minutes from Detroit - where in MI are you?
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Tammy,
I'm so sorry. Please know that we are here for you. Whatever you are feeling, someone here has felt. Don't be afraid to post your feelings here.
You are in my thoughts.
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"My heart is broken, but not my spirit. My desire to be a Mother is greater than my fear of another miscarriage." Gina M.
We are here for you. If you ever need to talk, I'm willing to listen. This board has been great for that very reason. Everyone is wonderful here and they understand where you are coming from. Hang in there.
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1 angel baby-Morgan lost 9/10/2005 at 7 weeks
Mommy to 1 precious miracle born on 3/28/08-Gracie-5lbs 11oz 19.25 inches long. Overcame PCOS and MTHFR/Factor VIII clotting disorders.
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I'm so sorry to hear about your loss and the pain you had to go through. Stick around -- the ladies in this section are all wonderful support.
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what a traumatic experience! i think numbness lasted a few months for me, wearing off gradually. you just have to listen to your heart and let the feelings flow when they need to. don't be afraid to grieve for your baby or to feel whatever you happen to feel, it is all normal. ans we'll be here to listen anytime. ((hugs)) i'm very sorry about this.
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(((HUGS))) So sorry you had to join us. (((HUGS)))
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Emotions are crazy things. Your heart can take you up and down and every which way. My last m/c was so different than the ones I had before. At first I didn't want to discuss it. I gave my DH only the vaguest of details (I was on visiting family out of state when it happened, without DH). Then I began having an overwhelming need to talk to someone about it. We had decided to do without internet for awhile (extremely short lived) and I had no one to talk to. We got our internet back on and I rushed to post something about it. Once I posted it, I didn't want to talk about it anymore. I didn't feel anything. Then out of the blue, reading about another cyster's loss, it was like the weight of the world hit me and I mourned for every loss I've ever had. I doubted God and lost faith for a few days. I was angry and frustrated and sad. I posted here and let it all out. I felt better again. Then a couple of nights ago I felt the need to give my DH a detailed account about what happened. He wanted to comfort me but I didn't want him to touch me and I went to the bathroom and cried. I don't understand my emotions. Emotions are not things to be understood. They just are. When it hits you hard, it's nice to have our SC to lean on. I used to feel like I was the only person suffering this way. Though we don't wish this pain on anyone, it is nice to know we are not alone in our feelings and in our grief.
My heart goes out to you. I was numb for about a week after my m/c. I still cry about it and it's still hard to realize the baby is gone. I wouldn't wish what I've been through on my worst enemy. Please know that we're here for you and I'm sure a lot of prayers are going out for you.
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{{{HUGS}}} I know I tended to alternate between feeling numb and uncotrollable crying. Of course the crying would always happen at the worst times, like at work. It will help to have some sort of support like this group. I am very sorry for your loss.
__________________ Janet (31) DH (41) ttc 7 years
Miscarriage 1/19/1999 at 10 weeks
Met ER 2000 mg daily HSG to be scheduled next cycle after af
Waiting on dh's SA results
Expecting to start Clomid after test results are in
Hasnt sank in yet... 
The hospital is almost an hour away mind you and once i got there i had to got to the bathroom and in my undies was a blob of jelly which was the sac. They gave me a shot for pain and i felt so much relief. On our way from the hospital BF was very upset and he said "its not good to bottle things up inside ya know" . I was so drugged up it didnt phase me at all and now i guess after taking almost 4 yrs to concieve it was hard to face the fact that there was even a baby in there. I was only 11 wks and never even made it long enough to get my first ultrasound which was a wk away. 
