 Having a difficult time....
My son's first birthday was last month, this month last year he was in the hospital and next month on the 12 is when he died. These are not a good three months. I did good on his birthday. We even had a birthday party. Our entire family ate pizza, then we went to his grave and released balloons. But the closer it gets to his Heaven date, the more depressed I'm getting. I really thought it would be the opposite.
It doesn't help that I've been sick. I ended up having to drop this semester at college due to illness. I hate having severe allergies.
Then to top it all off, I had a cyst burst early yesterday morning. OMG!!!!!! The pain was worse than having labor pains. I went to doctor and I still have the cyst on my left ovary, but now I have one on my right ovary that I didn't have before. The one on my left ovary is about lemon sized and the one on my right is about half that size. He says it looks like I had 2 on my right ovary and one of them burst. So I'm very sore at the moment.
I'm just at sorts mentally, physically and spiritually at the moment. I feel very worn and tired. I know that it will get better, but there are days I would love to crawl under a large boulder and stay there!
Thanks for letting me rant and rave some.
Amy
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Momma to baby angel Dominik(3/8/03-5/12/03)
One miscarriage(3/02=8 wks.)Married since June 24, 1995
On Weight Watchers since May 2003: 17lbs gone (so far!)
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