And yes I even have a plan made out. I dont see myself following through at this point in time. Why wont the cloud lift. I want to be happy. I need sleep. I want to cry but the tears dont come. Yes, I have a safety net right now--I am advised not to be alone now or this weekend (wont be a problem). Kyle is with me, well not right now but he is in the same vicinity. My sister has all the drugs, I dont own a gun and knives have always scared me. I promised my therapist that I wouldn't do anything for the week--I promised her that much. I just need a way out........but yet have had friend(s) commit suicide and know the pain that they caused everybody else so I dont want that. I know I isolate myself, I know many dont know about things--I know these things--I just cant get myself up and out of the deep dark and dreary hole that I'm in right now. Why is it that one day I'm happy and the next (like today) is just the complete sh*ts. Damn...i hate it.
__________________ Anne & Kyle
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I'm really sorry your feeling this way I haven't really got any suggestions but I can really understand and empathise with how your feeling as today I'm feeling the same. I'm going through a bad time at the moment with the PCOS which continuously gets worse.. the gynae oncologist has made me worse today as he cancelled my op schedueled for 2morra and is supposedly urgent. I'm devasted as I wanted it out the way..So I can move forward..
I really hope you have better days soon I'mgoing to have some therapy of my own tomorrow with the help of my friend...Retail therapy!! Perhaps you could do something with a friend(s)
Take care
((Hugs))
Take the bad days one day at a time, one hour at a time, and even one minute at a time. I am so glad you have people looking out for you. Just keep in mind that there are good days too and another will come for you. You just need to hold out until then.
Anne, I'm really sorry you are feeling so bad. Just want to send you a big hug. Please don't be afraid to ask for help, and try not to be alone at the weekend. If things get too bad, maybe you could be referred to a psychiatric emergency ward?
All the best
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I am so sorry hun! just a couple of weeks ago I was in a similar situation as you
Come to find out at my first psychiatrist appointment that a person with high anxiety should NEVER be given wellbutrin (bupropion) He upped my celexa to 40 mgs and I am making my way back to real life.
Also a good book I am reading is " the feeling good handbook" it is reading and exercises that you do in the book and so far it has really helped me alot!
Please if you ever feel you are in real danger of yourself, go to the hospital! you will be safe there! and always be open and honest, there is no shame!
(((((hugs)))))
if you want to talk more please come talk with me on my site, the link is in my siggy!
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do you have a link to the book? It really sounds interesting!
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sorry I don't I bought it at the book store the author is David D Burns!
Its probably on amazon.com
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Thanks! Amazon is fine for me - I would have to order it via amazon anyway, since I'm in Europe
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Having a not-so-good day 
