Somedays it's not worth getting out of bed. I know I'm miserable because of my fluctuating hormones, but that doesn't make things any easier. I just finished my first Yasmin pack in three months, and I wonder why I even started taking it. I was diagnosed with PCOS in July of 2001, and after several ovulation inductions and lots of lost money later, I still have no children other that my fur babies. Some days I feel good and having a baby is the furthest from my mind. Other days, like today, I just want to stay in bed. My husband doesn't want to adopt, and says if God wants us to have a baby we will. He says he doesn't care if we ever have children, as long as we're together. Well, when I get old and he's gone or I'm gone, who will be there for us? We will have no legacy left behind. I'm tired of people telling me if it's meant to happen it will. Those are the same people who had no trouble TTC. Those are the same people who never had to have surgery, diet, or take medication just to ovulate. Today I feel like I'm loosing my mind. Does anyone else ever get like this or am I all alone?
Hon, you are not alone! The whole "if God wants you to, then you will" statement was said to me on probably a weekly basis by someone other than my SO. I have taken a break from TTC; and have decided it is time to focus my energy somewhere else! Since your DH won't consider adoption; would he ever consider foster care? Because that may open his eyes to adoption when he formed a bond with one of the children you helped!
I wish you the best of luck in feeling better!! We, who want something bad enough and are good strong people, have to count our blessings as they come...and we will be counting more blessings than those that have things "easy" in life. Hold your head up and stay strong!! Take care!
__________________ Renee (Nay) 27 & Jeff (DH) 28
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my "kids" 1 retriever Lucky; and 1 Goldendoodle Fozzie
Dx: PCOS March 13, 2000
Other Dx: PTSD, Depression/Anxiety, Fibro, Sleep Apnea, High BP
Rx:Metformin 1500mgER, Prenatal Vits, Provera 10day
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you are not alone! maybe your husband refuses to acknowlege the pcos.
my dh keeps ignoring simple things like biology and want to ttc on infertile days or always insists that next month will be the month. he has been doing that for 3 years now.
i guess i love the optimism, but its very frustrating. he is like -- don't worry, we don't have to have kids, but i know that he isn't truly considering the possibility...
anyway, hope you feel better. i am drinking lots of tea today and i will go out for a run at the gym later.
__________________ Mom to Matilda: Born Feb 15, 2007
I feel like that from time to time (like yesterday, in fact). My saving grace on the legacy issue is that there are other ways to leave a legacy-- I've decided that if I end up completely unable to have children, I will foster kitties for a no-kill shelter, and that will be my contribution to society, along with tutoring girls in math (which I do already). My DH has also said that even if he never has children, having me will be enough (though he has also said we can cross the adoption bridge if we come to it).
I feel a lot better today... I have no idea why. I hope you feel better tomorrow.
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PCOS Diagnosed Nov 02'
Bi Polar Diagnosed Feb 08'
Current meds~ Lithium&Celexa
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I'm sorry. Its really tough.
My DH has said a similiar thing - he will not do IVF, he will not do any tests on himself, he will not adopt. If we don't have children then his happy just for us to be together. But at the same time he talks quite openly about the pain of not being a daddy.
My therapist did say that often couples are at different stages of the emotional rollercoaster of infertility.
It does make you feel very alone. Take care of yourself. Try to focus on other things, other little goals that have nothing to do with ovulation or babies.
For example I turn 30 in July this year, which I'm having a hard time dealing with because I really thought I'd be a Mum by then. So instead I'm planning a trip to Fiji - its something to distract me & something positive to look forward to.
Remember you can always come on here to vent, or if you want to PM me.
Having a Very BAD Day...... 
