Hello, my name is Cheryl. I was diagnosed about a year or so ago with PCOS. I've most had it for a very long time... I'm sure the bc pill masked my symptoms for years! I was off of it for a while. They told me it would take a while most likely for my cycle to regulate after stopping the pill. Well, my cycle didn't ever regulate and I went nearly a year with no period. So, for the second or third time I was put on hormones to get me to start. It didn't work at first, so I had to go through another round. I was not a fun person to deal with then I am sure! So, here I am now, at least a hundred pounds overweight, miserable, pre-diabetic, on metformin. My face breaks out all of the time. I am a complete emotional wreck! I grow hairs on my face and my head hair is starting to thin. I am also 34 years old and someday would like a baby. On top of it all I am separated from my husband and it is all my fault! I am frustrated and want to connect with people who understand! Thanks to anyone who took the time to read this! OH, and I love to eat!!! LOL who doesn't???
Welcome to the site!! Take a deep breath and stop being so hard on yourself. From your picture I can tell that you have great hair and an awesome smile. Give yourself some credit for starting to get help. This site has some wonderfully supportive women and tons of information for you. You listed a laundry list of things that are stressing you out. Pick one thing and start there.
I unfortunately stressed myself out by over-reading different articles etc about PCOS on the internet and they all freaked me out. This site is great, don't get me wrong, but beware of the frightening things you may read from other's struggles.
Your husband could even contact and speak with other husbands on the site. He may have questions about what you're going through--granted you may have already answered them--but sometimes they need to hear it from another man.
I'm new to the whole PCOS thing, too, so I totally understand your fears and frustrations. Although PCOS is a difficult diagnosis -believe me, I panicked, too, when I was diagnosed- it's not a death sentence and many cysters here on the boards do recover from it or at least improve their symptoms. I agree with Amber that you shouldn't get too overwhelmed with reading all of the threads and articles here on the boards, as many folks here are voicing their frustrations just as you are.
If I were you, I'd work closely with your MD to resolve the issues that are concerning you. I've heard that metformin works well for many to reduce IR and the symptoms associated with it, so stick with it for now per your dr's instructions. Also, you mentioned being separated from your DH...have you two considered couples therapy to work on your relationship? My dbf and I went to couples therapy for awhile and it has helped us tremendously in repairing our relationship. We broke up for awhile, too, but we're now back together and happier than ever.
By the way, I think you look very pretty in your photo, so you shouldn't be so hard on yourself. Just because you have a medical condition that's affecting your apperance somewhat doesn't mean that you're no longer a beautiful person, inside and out. Best of luck to you and I hope that this has been a little helpful.
Last edited by siamlovex2; 11-20-2008 at 05:14 PM.
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Yes, I get extremely overwhelmed and tend to stack things up until I just give up. The deal with my DH is that we will not get back together. I hurt him too bad and he doesn't want me back. I don't blame him. I have a boyfriend. I know, may not sound right, just a long story I guess. I am overwhelmed and nothing sounds fun anymore... just depression. I have been dealing with it for a very long time along with anxiety. Anyway, thanks for your kind messages and words of encouragement!
Sorry to hear that things with the DH are not working. Speaking as one who's been divorced for a few years now, the depression and anxiety will decrease with time. During the first couple of years after my divorce, I would get so angry, I would have frequent rage episodes in front of my current dbf. It's a wonder he didn't leave me and run for the hills....LOL! Fortunately I've mellowed out a LOT since those days.
I hope that your current bf is good to you. That'll help a lot in getting over the pain and disappointment from your separation.
Last edited by siamlovex2; 11-21-2008 at 07:44 PM.
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Thanksgiving was a disaster! My vacation was worse! I got bronchitis and didn't have any fun!!! I threw baby fits and it was not pretty! I wish I could just stop! I left my dbf at my aunt's house because he was playing cards with other people and not paying attention to me. I suppose I require too much attention. It's pathetic! I caused a scene and I'm sure people think I am insane. I cannot find anything that is truly "FUN" to me. I just want to have fun, be content and happy most of the time. I've hurt others and myself in this whole mess. I am sure things will get better and I tell myself that, but they never do, they just keep getting worse. Thank you ALL SO MUCH for listening to me. I know without this site I would be totally lost! I think my hormones are WAY out of whack and I need to figure it out soon before I freak out!!!
Hello stressed out newbie here! 
