I have been where you are. I think a lot of us have.
Crying, hopelessness, misery. " I thought that was just life. I have this disease it makes me physically unattractive i'm destined to be miserable"
or the "helpful advice" excercize more, you'll feel better...my answer to that, BITE ME I"M TOO TIRED TO GET OUT OF BED!
then i finally gave in and saw a dr. Some friends kind of forced me into it when i was about 25... started taking zoloft.
Have never looked back.
Still have PCOS, still fat, and lots of reasons not to be happy, and i'm not always happy, but the all consuming misery, the dark endless hole is gone. The feeling that my skin is the only thing holding me together and i'm hollow and empty inside. all of that, gone.
i felt so good that at 30 i knew i was fine and stopped taking my meds. my life exploded. I almost died, literally, and emotionally i killed a lot of things including a semi decent friendship and a budding academic career.
all because my brain has a little thing that is naturally smaller than it's supposed to be and thus doesn't manufacture enough seratonin and that other one whose name i can't remember at one am.
so what i'm saying is NO there isn't a 'cure' no there isn't a magic way to feel happy all the time, but the pit of despair does not have to be your mailing address, don't hesitate to take the pills the dr reccommends,
and you know yourself better than anyone, remember that and don't hesitate to tell the dr, if the pills make you feel weird, unhappy, or sick.
also if they make you too manic there's a danger there, so be your own medical expert on yourself, and monitor how you feel, but don't convince yourself that you have to feel like this.
okay i'm shutting up now. sorry i ranted so long, please feel free to pm me if you like.
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34 yrs old
meds:
Metformin XR 1500 MG
SpiranoLactone 150 mg
Tricor 160mg
zoloft 50 mg
klonopin 2 mg
Mircette
Librax PRN for tummy troubles
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