Help...i Think I Am A B****!!!

mandi78 · 08-05-2004, 06:32 PM

I am really having issues lately with being totally intolerant of others...especially the women I work with. They are just so stupid and I can't even stand to listen to them laugh or talk or anything. I just want to tell them to JUST SHUT THE H*** UP.

I don't want to feel this way...like I'm just a B**** but that is how I feel. I don't really say much to them but inside, I am clenching my teeth and just wanting to shut them all up. I really wish I could quit my job and just find something I could do from home. I just don't really want to be around people much. They talk about things they know nothing about like they are experts on the subject when they are really just showing their ignorance and they laugh.... LOUDLY & ALL THE TIME....about stuff that is not funny.

Like I said, I do not want to feel this way but I just feel so bitter and angry. I don't know why. I don't really know if it is about something specific or is it just part of the mood swings and hormones being off. I have heard a few of you mention this....do others of you feel this way?

Tigger2Cute · 08-05-2004, 06:48 PM

I feel that way quite often. There are days when I just want to scream at everyone. I go straight home from work, and don't want to go anywhere that I don't have to. I've even quit going to church, because I just hate going out. I think it's either Social Anxiety Disorder or Generalized Anxiety Disorder. I'm supposed to be taking Lexapro for my anxiety. I was having anxiety attacks almost every day. But I've quit taking it cause I just can't afford it. I've just realized what the attacks are and don't let them bother me. So, I rarely have them now, but I still get very b**chy alot of days. I don't even want anyone to talk to me. The only person I can stand to be around is my hubby, and that's only cause he knows how I am and he knows how to deal with me. :p
I think that alot of it is the hormones being out of whack, but who knows? Maybe I'm just a basket case!
HTH, at least to know you're not alone.

Tigger

mandi78 · 08-05-2004, 06:57 PM

I know about the anti-depressants being expensive....my insurance won't pay for them so I get them online from Canada....they are about 1/2 the cost of what they are in the states. I get 3 months of Celexa for about $105-$120. It's more than I want but I would go literally insane without them.

Wiggleynose · 08-05-2004, 08:44 PM

Hi! Are you me!??!?!!?

Wow, that sounds much like what I go through. I HATE people. The women here.... UGH. I have to leave my desk sometimes they're so stupid. And then I'll be on the phone with a customer or something and they'll nearly SCREAM so loud and giggle so loud the cust. can hear them and not me.

UGH!

You know, My problem is my thyroid (at least i'm fairly positive my thyroid issues are causing this).

Does your insurance cover anything? That sucks they don't cover anti-depressants.. geesh!

mandi78 · 08-05-2004, 08:50 PM

They do not cover any mental health issues (go figure, that's where I need the most help...lol) and they do not cover infertility or even birth control pills unless they are medically necessary. They suck....but I won't even get started on that or I'll just get all stirred up...lol.

lisadukk · 08-06-2004, 03:28 AM

i remember going to the dr many years ago...when i might have actually first been dx, and the dr asked if i had pms. since i didn't have af except a couple times a yr i told her i didn't know...i said i was basicially just a ***** all the time

ideas about meds for mental health though....have you tried the mhmr in your area?? i knew someone when i was in waco as well as someone here in austin who couldn't afford their meds, they went to mhmr and were able to get them on either a much lower rate if not free.....might be worth looking into.

also, if you have a dx of pcos isn't that a medical reason for bcp??

just a thought.....good luck!!!!

Psychopomp · 08-06-2004, 06:52 AM

Mandi, hi. Just out of curiosity, where do you go online to get your meds from Canada? I don't have insurance, either, and I've thought of using this method. But I'd appreciate a recommendation so that I don't wind up at some spammer's website or getting ripped off. Thanks!

mandi78 · 08-06-2004, 11:13 AM

The one I use is www.planetdrugsdirect.com

I usually get the stuff within a week or so.

ERICKA77 · 08-06-2004, 12:45 PM

Yea, me to. I dont' want to seem rude when I'm in public, but people get on my nerves. Especially women...LOL... Not all the time,but sometimes I probally shouldn't go inside a store when I'm in an anti-people mood. I feel like screaming to all of them. I have my select friends, and don't care about making new ones. I don't feel like being social like I used to. I don't want to be labeled a b***h. Because deep down inside I'm really not. I used to be so nice, friendly, calm, laid back. I think my anti-people is due to my hormones. Since things tend to get on my nerves easily.
I'm glad I'm not the only one.

mandi78 · 08-06-2004, 12:47 PM

Yeah, Yeah....me too....it's always women that get on my nerves...lol!!!

Psychopomp · 08-06-2004, 05:21 PM

Thanks, Mandi!

TheTomato · 08-06-2004, 06:33 PM

LMAO, oh nooooooo, I have no idea what you're talking about. I neeeever wish ignorant, loudmouthed, horse-laughing co-workers would go out and run in front of a bus or shut the @#$% up!

When I worked in law firms, it was usually this "gaggle" of women that would be constantly squawking about stuff I had no interest in. Fortunately, I later got my own office there, and I could just swing the door shut whenever the gaggle parked nearby.

Since I began working for software companies, though, it's been the men who are a PITA. At the last company I worked for, there was this group of old-timer engineers near my cube who'd sit around like they're on the Jeff Foxworthy show, kvetching about their wives, kids, cars, etc. In our all-girl cube, we'd just look at each other in amazement as their loud conversations rattled on, and the last shreds of office decorum slid away. We called it "The Men's Kouch," after this Outland cartoon I had up at my desk. Anytime they got going, we'd roll eyes and say, "The Men's Kouch is in session again." Another guy, the software test lead, had a laugh that would grate the paint off a navy destroyer. Unfortunately, it was in frequent use, and it could be heard all over the floor. HUH HUH HUH *schnort schnort* HUH HUH *schnort* DUH HUH HUHduh *snortsnarf snort*

And now, at this office, there's a guy who comes to visit the two guys across the hall from me. He has only one volume setting, Earsplitting; and he either mainlines espresso or takes amphetamines, because he also speaks somewhere between Radio Advertisement Disclaimer speed and Auctioneer speed. And if that isn't irritating enough, every third word is F*** this and F*** that. On my own time, I've been known to use um, off-color terms, but in the hallway at the office? One day, last month, when I'd had it to the neck with everything else, here comes Sir Yaksalot, and as soon as he starts in, I swung the office door shut SLAM! Hope he got the message.

I noticed this guy has a wedding ring on. Holy freakin' night, he must either be rich or built like a rhino, that's all I have to say.

lil lizzie · 08-08-2004, 09:58 AM

gee, this all sounds so familiar...oh that's right, cuz it's me

sometimes i hate people so much especially women. i just feel so bitter and angry sometimes. it's not like this all the time, but when it happens i don't know where it came from and there's no stopping me. i am extremely sarcastic. right now my brand new husband of two weeks (yay!!!) and i are living with our best friends, and i don't know how much longer i can hack it. i know living with friends is bad to start with, but the longer i'm here the more my friend annoys the crap out of me. it's always me this and me that. you're life isn't that friggin bad so get over yourself. i've never physically fought anyone in my life, but she's at the top of my list about now. hopefully we can get into a place of our own soon or i'm gonna lose it. since we got married, i don't take anything out on dh, it's more of an "us against the world" mentality now. so that's an improvement, i guess...
till next time

luv u all
amber

soulfulqween · 08-10-2004, 06:49 PM

i also have little or no tolerance for ppl...especially women...thank goodness my co-workers who are women dont bother me in the slightest they are all the same birth signs has my best friends so i think that it why it works out so well...but any other women usually make me wanna rip off their heads and shove them directly into their asses seeing as they talk from there anyways i honestly dont see the harm in it... yes i am a b***h...i mean literally silly little dilly chicks make me want to hurt....them and everyone that enjoys there foolish behavior...and i hate when people are too loud or talk too much...in some cases i hate when certain people breathe...and i really cant stand when people chew with their mouths full!!!!!

like i could go insane or bash their heads together...so yes i do know what u are talking about i am a complete and total b***h...and quite proud if it...i dont like when people annoy me and have absolutely no issues telling them that they have gotten on my nerves...this includes anyone or everyone...yes i am a b***h...i am extremely tempermental and i could blow at the slightiest annoyance, and completely w/o warning...yes i am a b***h...and if i have told you that something pisses me off and you continue to do it i am going to really let you have it...why because i am a b***h...i can go from happy to pissed in 0 to 60 seconds flat and i dont feel as though i have to explain...its just cause i am a b***h

mandi78 · 08-10-2004, 08:45 PM

I tell the women at my work they are getting on my nerves....but they don't get it. In fact, I tell them repeatedly but it does no good. What really makes me mad is that they all have offices and I only have a cubicle with partitions but they come OUT of their offices and all congregate in the middle so I can't get away from them. I'm like, "If you all want to be out here so bad, let me have one of your offices and I will gladly let you have my cubicle." But they don't want to do that, oh no....they just want to drive me to the looney bin with their cackling and chattering and hooting and hollering. I wanted to come home and start drinking so bad today (though I am not much of a drinker) but don't really think I should because I haven't drank since I have been on Met and don't know how I would tolerate it.