I have been dreading this day. I've known for a few months that I would have to put my beloved cat to sleep. He's 17 years old, has thyroid disease and kidney failure, and is going downhill fast. I know this needs to be done, but I just don't know how I'm going to make it through this. I've had Nick since I was 15 years old...over half my life he's been with me. He's been such a good cat...until recently was never sick, never any problem. He's started losing balance and falling, having little mini-seizures from what I can tell, pooping outside the litter box, howling all night and I just know he's feeling miserable. I know he's in pain. I know I have to help him. It's just so damn hard. He was my constant companion from the day I got him. He got me through a lot of rough times when it was just me and him, when I was lonely and depressed and thought no one loved me. Nick loved me through it all. Now it's time to show him how much I love him, I guess. I made this decision a few months ago when I found out how sick he was, and was avoiding the inevitable. It's time now. I can't keep dragging this out and making him suffer more simply because it's tearing me up inside. I don't want him to die alone and scared while I'm at work and have to come home and find him. I want to be there, hold him, and have the last thing he sees and hears be me telling him how much I love him, and how sorry I am that I have to do this. This is the most painful thing I've ever done in my life. Please send your thoughts and prayers our way about 3:30 pm...that's when his appointment is. I have no idea how I'm going to get through this.
__________________ Rebecca ~ 35
DH Matt ~ 39
Married 11-20-04
TTC for 5 years...never pregnant.
Hoping for a miracle...
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My thoughts and prayers are with you. My heart is breaking for you right now. I know how difficult this is for you but, remember, you will be with Nick again someday and he won't be sick the next time you see him.
God Bless you,
__________________ Angeltears
PCOS
Age 45
No longer TTC--I'm Too Old Now (We gave up the fight)
Still taking Glucophage
One Fur Baby--Bridget--our blind cocker spaniel
I am so sorry for your pain. I will send supportive thoughts your way. I had a poodle who was my first baby, she was 16 when we had to put her down because she was deaf, blind and was having seizures. She would also have accidents around the house and was not able to walk very well. It was very hard on me, but I knew she was near death and I like you didn't want her to die alone. My dh took care of putting her down while I was at work, I don't know if it was easier on me or not.
I still see her in my dreams, she comes to visit once in a while. I always feel comforted when I dream of her.
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Total Hysterectomy 8-21-09 Living well is the best revenge!
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Oh Rebecca! I am so very, very sorry. Your post brought tears to my eyes. Your love for your little Nick really shines through. I know that you have made the right decision, but that doesn't make it any easier. The end of a pet is never easy. When I found only half of my furbaby Snowy, a white kitty(he had been torn apart by some wild animal in the night) it was so terrible. However, after we buried the remains I realized that that was only his shell...his legacy of love would live on and it has. It takes a while, but in time, you will be comforted by memories of him instead of the sadness of today. I will always remember Snowy's unconditional love and smile about his silly times and I know you will with your baby, too. Your life and his life were so much richer because of the love and caring that you had for him.
Oh, Rebecca. I am sending you huge hugs! We lost our kitty in August to a sudden massive heart attack. Both my husband and I were there with him while it happened - holding him -thank God. I honestly think it was best to be there with him. I thank God I got up earlier than usual that morning to feed the kitties (in hopes that they would eat then come back to snuggle, but such was not the case). I was just putting the food bowls down when it started to happen. I yelled for DH and we were both there for his last minutes. I am trying not to be graphic and go into detail because it was traumatic and you don't need to know details - just that being there was super hard on us, but better for him. We were holding and patting him the whole time which I am sure he knew and was glad we were with him.
I think the same will be with your kitty except he will just fall asleep in your arms. You have to be strong. This will be so hard on you - but is better than the alternative of him dying alone. You are doing the right thing. He has been your dear friend and furry baby for many years and has had a long happy, healthy life until now.
Being able to save him from worse pain and suffering is the ultimate act of love for him. I know this will be one of the hardest days of your life. Know that you are not alone in your pain.
When I posted about losing our kitty, Buddy, many people gave beautiful, heartfelt responses and warm comforting words.
What comforted me the most was when a kind soul posted about the "Rainbow Bridge". I am crying posting this, but you need to read this beautiful poem:
Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.
When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.
All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor. Those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.
They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent. His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.
You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.
Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....
Author unknown...
Take care sweetie, I know how hard it is and how no other kitty will ever replace that wonderful one you are losing. Sending you hugs....
__________________ Nat
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Dx PCOS June '06
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*hugs* It is a rough time. We lost a yearling kitten earlier this year quite suddenly. It is kind to do what you're doing and helping ease his suffering. My baby purred until he fell asleep from the sedation...
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Rebecca I am so sorry you are having to do this My thoughts will be with you this afternoon and I hope that Nick passes peacefully knowing how much you loved him.
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So sorry for your loss Rebecca. I know how you are feeling. I have had to put a dog to sleep about 13 years ago and it still hurts. I have another dog that I adopted/rescued from the shelter as a puppy and he is now almost 12 and I can see he is having a hard time especially when it's cold out. I think it's arthritis. I love him so much and I think I will need to be sedated when that dreaded day comes.
Hope you feel better. Just remember all the memories of your kitty.
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I'm so sorry. This is one of the hardest things a furmommy will ever have to do. I've only had to do this once so far and it was sooo hard. My heart goes out to you and you will be in my thoughts and prayers. ((((hugs))))
Helping my beloved cat die... 
My thoughts will be with you this afternoon and I hope that Nick passes peacefully knowing how much you loved him.
So sorry for your loss Rebecca. I know how you are feeling. I have had to put a dog to sleep about 13 years ago and it still hurts. I have another dog that I adopted/rescued from the shelter as a puppy and he is now almost 12 and I can see he is having a hard time especially when it's cold out. I think it's arthritis. I love him so much and I think I will need to be sedated when that dreaded day comes.
