Well it seem it was too good too big true…. For those that don’t know I have been living in anti-social behaviour hell for a very long time, and last year was the worse year I had experienced living which nearly saw me taking my own life. I took ages to see my GP to go on anti-depressants as I was struggling to talk to him I was simply struggling to talk to anyone. I eventually in October plucked up the courage to see him only after I had written to him how I was feeling and how it was affecting me. It made the initial appointment with him easier.
I started the AD and within a couple of week I started to feel better and not like a virtual prisoner in my own home.
After 5 weeks out of work I returned and also got the help of a counsellor at work that I only finished seeing earlier this month. Whilst the problems the anti-social behaviour continued I was able to get by and manage with it, if I could just keep from having any contact with one person who would just provoke me and start trouble for no reason.
Anyway low and behold, on Thursday evening I was coming home from work when this girl decided it was time to kick off again, I’ve had no contact or spoke to her since July last year. She decided to give me and my father the v-sign and mouth a pile of verbal abuse at us when we driving on the carport at my parents house. When I got out of the car, she continued the abuse and simply told me she wanted a 1on1 fight with me…… RIGHT OKAY…
She’s 14 years old….. she knows if I lay on fingers on her I’ll be the one in prison…
I’ve never had a fight or hit anyone in my life… I’ll admit I do have a temper which I get from my father, but I control it….
However she wound me up to the point I thought I was going to explode. I was fuming, I was upset and I was angry… why now after 8 months, why did she feel fit to start her game again.
I got scared, not of her of what I would do to her if she continued to provoke me like she does…. Lets be honest, I could sit on her and she’d be dead!!!!!
I phoned the housing who’s usual response was to write it down send it in….
I was so angry at the threats that I went over to the police station to report it.
Anyway to cut a long story short, it worked me and set my health back 6 months in a space of two hours! I did nothing but cry all Thursday night, telling myself I would be better of dead that living with this anymore.
I went to work and my eyes where as puffy s hell I tried to avoid anyone for fear of being asked questions, my colleague knew something was wrong, and asked me but I just started to cry…. I rang my doctors at 8.30pm to see if I get an appointment….
One of the GP’s called me back 10 minutes later in work, I didn’t care I needed to talk to someone. I went down there at 11am leaving work and I got to see the fill in registrar at the practice. I seemed to wait for ages it was time was still….
What can I saw, this doctor turned out to be from Germany…. She was so nice to me, I was with her for over an hour and everything she said made sense. I know what the next step was for me to do and I knew for the sake of my sanity I have to do it.
I went back to work and told them I was going home, submitted a sick note and I am seeing the doctor again next week.
I can’t handle living here anymore, its gone on way to long for me and trying to continue and put up with till the housing sort out what they are planning is too long. I should have left last year but I gave the police, the housing place the benefit of the doubt to do something and they have failed.
I am due to meet with them this week which was planned before the event on Thursday, but I am sick of there fob offs.
My mind is made up to move, even though I am going to be leaving my parents behind who live over the road, and as much as I love them I have to know put myself first, I cannot and will not keep putting myself wanting to kill myself when there are friends who love me.
It’s not worth it, this house has been my home for 5 years in April, and all those years have been hell, I initially started to want to move out in the February 10 months after I moved in, but it was so hard to get somewhere better and being the main carer for my mum was even harder.
Now I don’t care where I move to, I need to stay here at least till the first week of April as I am relying on my parents to look after my dog when I go to London for 3 days…. If I could get out of the trip I would, but I can’t! I am hoping though in the next couple of weeks to get as much support as I can to get a move whether I have to beg the council or take on a private landlord.
I am through with fighting these people, I have broken down, I give up entirely I can’t fight them by staying here!
Oh Alison, I'm so sorry you are having to put up with such utter crap! Some people are just unbelievable. They have nothing else to do or think about except annoy and provoke. This kid has problems and doesn't realise the effect it's having on you, but there is absolutely NO excuse for behaving like this. I don't think it's because she's 14, I think just some people are like this.... Sad but true I think.
You have done the right thing in going to see your doctor and talking it over. I'm glad she was so nice and took such time with you.
Remember you have been doing really well cutting down/out the AD's, getting on the metformin and improving your eating...you are on the right road. If the situation with this neighbour has been going on for five years without improvement then it's unlikely to improve in the immediate future. I think you are right in requesting a move from the council. Maybe see about talking it through with your counsellor in work who knows your full situation, he/she might be better able to advise you.
Personally, I feel life is too short to put up with this kind of thing - there are some battles that can't be won.
Here for you if you need to talk things through.... Feel free to PM.
What a total nightmare. You shouldn't have to put up with the crap, but i now think it is definately right to take you out of that situation totally nd move.
what is your next step with the council going o be?
Take care of yourself and we are here if you want a ran, advice or to take your mind off it.
Caz
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