I just thought that I would post a "hello" before the weekend. I haven't been on any forums much the past couple days because I've been dealing really hard with a lot of emotional issues. But today I'm feeling pretty good. I'm nervous but I'm READY!
I will probably be doing a lot of work around the house tomorrow and the weekend. Saturday i'm going to spend the day with my daughter and take her to the parade and carnival here in the county. Something to also ease time before the BIG DAY!
I've talked to the BM a lot today. I'm feeling better. I'm terribly nervous about the whole hospital part but not as bad as I was because I'm prepared myself to realize that no matter what, this will all be over next week.
It will be done. So that is comforting to me.
I think sometimes you just have to step back away from it all and take sometime for yourself to THINK and sort out all those negative feelings & thoughts. Because if you dwell on them it can break you fast.
Yes it can be a emotional roller coaster but it's the best roller coaster ride I've ever been on because at the END is the best part of all. The baby! (I will always have a special place in my heart for the parents)
I really hope this next week goes by fast. The hospital is suppose to have a lot of c sections and inductions that day so we may not get a room to ourselves, which will be a damper BUT it will all work out. We are going to get a room at the Holiday Inn and try to be at the hospital as much as possible, but I will also have to be with Destiny on and off too. But it will all work out. The Dr. did say that she will probably be release from the hospital on Weds morning and I just PRAY that she lets me bring that baby home with me because the papers won't actually be signed until Friday morning. I think she will but you never know ???
Friday morning I will have to drive them to a neighboring county to do their things with the legal signings and then that same morning at 11 we will appear in court too.
Well I'll hush for now. I just wanted to let ya all know I'm thinking of you and will post something as soon as I can.

Probably won't be until that Friday tho. Take care.