windsers

Does anyone else have fleeting thoughts about death? Wow that sounds really bad. I just sometimes get inthe car and thnk about drivng off the overpass or into an embankment. I don't ever dwell on it but just the thought keeps coming back. It has been worse the last couple of weeks since the pain (ovarian) has hit again with such a vengance.

I guess it doesn't help that I am a single mom with one high maintenance child and going back to school too. Lots of stress.

I just can't imagine where my brain is going! I have so many blessings and all I can think about is how hard life is. Why can't I just be grateful? Any ideas?

Well thanks for letting me vent a little.

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Lendi

i sometimes wish i could get in the car and just drive and drive and never look back, just keep right on going. is that kinda what you're saying. not suicidal at all, just would like a break from the real world and feel a little bit of peace and quiet and leave everything bad/sad behind and not have to think. i wouldn't leave my family for the world it's just kind of a fantasy. but, oh what a lovely one sometimes. hope your life calms down soon. sounds like a really busy one. Lendi

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Jenny Gabrenas

i'm constantly thinking about driving the car off a cliff. horrible! but, the other day hubby was driving and we hit ice and we slid. i now know i dont want to die. i was so scared, but it was a minor slide.

one thing that helped me, when i was in DEEP depression was i didnt/dont want my kids to go through my death. its easy to say. really rough when you are in the middle of a crisis.

push through this. i know its hard. i know.

thinking of you. you are not alone.

jenny

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