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Originally Posted by sweetgal2002 ok so i have this issue i feel that sometimes i'm falling apart like why am i they one how has to deal with all these issues why me sometimes i want to throw my pills away and stop dealing with it because i feel if i did that i would feel "normal" againbefore all the doctors appointments and before i had to call the doc to report every little pain i get. and it terrifies me even the thought that i will have problems having chrildren because that is all i have ever wanted even tho i'm not ready to have any right now it still scared the heck out of me. also when i do have a boyfriend how and when do i tell him that i have this problem i feel that i wouldn't want to burden my problems on to anyone else even tho that is wat i wanna do because i shouldn't have to go threw this all by myself yet it is a private battle i have to deal with i feel like there is so much run threw my head sometimes that i can't even think of it all i'm moody, i cry all the time and no one knows why i don't even know why i just donno what to do it is all just all of a sudden catching up with me and it is sad because i have just amitted that there is something wrong with me and that is hard for me to do i just donno what to do |
Sweetie, you deal with it one thing at a time, one day at a time. You sound pretty "normal" for a PCOSer, to me, and we all have these feelings a lot of the time! I understand completely about worrying about the baby in the future. But until you're ready for doing that, you are doing the very best thing in the world to prepare yourself. Look at that weight loss! GOOD FOR YOU!! Keep working at it, and getting healthy in other ways, and when the time comes, then work at getting pregnant. But worrying about it now, will only make you feel like crap.
Same thing about a guy......when the right one comes along, you will have no problem sharing this with him, and he will be there for you. You don't have to share this burden immediately with a guy you date, and it's probably too "big" to deal with early in dating. But you CAN share this with your family and friends and they'll help you through it. The ones who love you, anyway.
And remember, this disease does NOT DEFINE YOU. You, your dreams, your sense of humor, your smile, your talents, your family, your intelligence, all that stuff is what defines you. Not a syndrome your physical body has. It's appropriate to feel overwhelme at the beginning of this disease, and it's OK to grieve for how it feels like it has taken away the normal you. But what you can do about that, is get informed, get as healthy as possible, the get on with life. As I said it DOES NOT DEFINE YOU. You are bigger than PCOS.
how do u deal with it? 
