Arg....I m/c on Monday....I actually had to leave work early because it started there. I;ve been of work since. My body is having a hard time getting back to normal, as is my mind. I will just be sitting her and break down crying. I will be off until Monday. I don't know how to go back on Monday. Everyone at work knows because I was having problems since Friday. I'm a teacher and everyone is so caring, but I just don't know how in the world I will handle the looks of pity and the hugs and sorries. They all mean well, but it doesn't take much for me to break down. I still cannot believe that I'm not pg anymore.
My best friend gently told my class what was going on because they were so worried about me, I left early Friday and Monday and then didn't go in, I'm NEVER out. I've had my kids for 2 years and we are close, they needed to know.
Thanks for listening, I just needed to get things off my chest.
Heather
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Big hugs for you hun. I don't know what to tell you. I wasn't working when I m/c'ed, I was just taking college classes. I only went to 2 classes that month because I couldn't handle it (My grandmother passed away a few weeks after my m/c too.). That's not really an option for most people though, I just had really understanding professors.
I know I sat crying everyday, and sometimes I would just sit and stare at the wall. I couldn't focus...
I don't know what to say to cope with it, I didn't very well. But I want to send you a great big cyber hug. It's so hard.
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I am sorry for you loss. It was difficult for me to return after my ectopic. If anyone asked me about it, I just told them I was not ready to discuss what happened. I thank them for their concern. It gave me time to approach anyone I was interested in telling at a time when I was ready to discuss. I know how hard it is now. You will always be saddened by it, but will start to be able to think about it with crying after some time.
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When I went back to work I sat at my desk and cried for the first month after it happened. Got my work done, but cried and barely spoke to anyone. Some hugs I wanted, some I didn't. I just politely told some people I didn't feel comfortable talking about it or getting hugs. It is very hard but you will find the balance you need. So sorry for your loss.
i was a daycare teacher working in a large program with mostly single teenage mothers. When i lost my girls there were 4 moms pregnant - at different stages...i couldnt go back - i didnt - for 5 months! i was terrified of meeting them at the door, still pregnant with their babies who would have been born at the same time i was due - and i just couldnt do it. I was a mess - there was no way i could go back days later, in fact i didnt get out of my pjs for weks! Going back to work was more then i could handle, but if you must...you just have to give yourself permission to feel what you have to feel...and work through it, no matter where you are.
Greif is the worst, it sneaks up on when you least expect it, the triggers you expect may pass you by, but putting peas on your plate in the staff room might get you. For me it was walking through the pharmacy at walmart and looking at hemmeroid creme (i'm not making light of this i promise) and watching someone drink cranberry juice...
My advice is to take a little time. Youre body is going to go through some changes, hormonal, whatever, as it re-adjusts, and that brings with it a whole other host of erratic emotions...believe me Take some time for you, it sounds like your colleagues will understand. Bless your angel and you...and please take care of yourself right now. Hugs
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Thank you all for the support...I did go back to work today, I couldn't bare another day in front of the tv. It was ok. I broke down a little on the way in, my colleagues were great. I sent an e-mail to my staff thanking them for the thoughts and prayers and asked them to please not ask me anything because I was not ready to talk about it yet and they were very respectful of my wishes. I had some random hugs from people I wouldn't consider close to me and that almost sent me crying, but I kept it together. I was quite proud of myself.
Thanks again ladies.
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Going back to work for me was horrible. My loss also "began" at work. Some people didn't even know I had lost my baby (I used to work for a very large company 2000+ employees). I was off for a long time, one woman thought that I had gone off to deliver my baby and congratulated me!
I'm glad things were easier for you, but brace yourself because some people will do a fine job at sticking their feet in their mouths.
I'm so sorry for your loss.
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How do you back to work? 
I'm so sorry, how terrible for you all...
i was terrified of meeting them at the door, still pregnant with their babies who would have been born at the same time i was due - and i just couldnt do it. I was a mess - there was no way i could go back days later, in fact i didnt get out of my pjs for weks! Going back to work was more then i could handle, but if you must...you just have to give yourself permission to feel what you have to feel...and work through it, no matter where you are.
Take some time for you, it sounds like your colleagues will understand. Bless your angel and you...and please take care of yourself right now. Hugs 
