disintegration

I am one of those people who are always happy on the outside and for the most part it helped with the inside. However, I am finding myself rather uncapable to not be depressed on the outside. I have become really untrustful of the person who loves me more than anyone and have been lashing out to my family. It feels like sometimes that I can't feel sadness or anything because other people expect me to be "on". Or, I can't seem to shake certain feelings or past hurts. I am feeling lost and sometimes I feel like its just to much. I need to feel sad and I need to be angry! Noone lets me. Could I be depressed?

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TickledPink

Well I supose a doctor would tell you it would be depression with 2 or more weeks of any or all of these kind of symptoms!
-increased appetite
-decreased appetite
-decreased sleep
-increased sleep
-irration fears
-anxiety
-hopelessness
-isolation
-loss of sex drive(if ya had one lol) that was for me
-crying
-lathargic on and on and on............



It couls also be meds that are doing it.


Speek with your doc! Thats always a good place to start!


go to www.medbroadcast.com and look up depression.



get better!

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CocoRumGirl

Other than the symptoms TickledPink listed, the best way I can describe it is the feeling of being trapped. The walls are closing in, and it feels like you're being buried. It seems there's no way out of this deep hole that just keeps getting deeper and deeper. Sorta like you can feel the heaviness of the world hanging over you. Like a shadow covers you all the time. I'm like you. Everyone who knows me thinks I'm happy, when in reality, I feel everything I just described. Occasionally, it comes through and people can see that something's wrong, but I don't want them to worry, so I try to cover it up, no matter how bad I feel. Everyone just expects me to be a certain way, always upbeat and positive. I'm not sure if I helped at all or just took up space. If you feel you may be depressed talk to your doctor. You can see it's time for me to have another discussion with mine too. Hope you feel better soon!

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Ren

Someone once described it to me as a big black cloud that won't go away. This cloud affects everything and there's no end to it. Nothing gives you pleasure, because you look up and that damn cloud is there.