Janet,
I am so sorry for your losses.
We have been trying to conceive for over 8 years now and last year in July I finally got pregnant on clomid. I was diagnosed PCOS before the pregnancy, but was not diagnosed with diabetes II until during the pregnancy. I never got to see the heart beat because we went in at 9wks for our first u/s to see the heartbeat and instead only saw an empty sac. I had a missed miscarriage the doctor said. We waited, but I didn't miscarry on my own so I went in for a D & C. It was the most horrifying thing that ever happened to me.
Only 4 months later after being put on glucophage for the diabetes that refused to go away once I was no longer pg. We conceived on the glucophage. I was terrified, but confident I wouldn't m/c because my body refused to m/c the first pregnancy. Instead, I was afraid of another empty u/s screen. At 5wks pg I was taken off the glucophage because it was deemed unsafe and began spotting a few days later. I spotted off and on for 2 wks and lost the baby at 7wks 1 day pregnant.
We are on hold right now until I see a new Ob/gyn on the 23rd of this month. Not being able to try is killing me emotionally, but I get through it because of the diabetes. I am militant about controlling my diabetes because if my HA1C test comes back at higher than 6% I don't get the fertility meds and without those it is just no use even ttc because for 6years we used nothing and never even got a faint positive. Our only hope is medication, so I have to be good for the doctors and our future baby.
All the thoughts you mentioned about not wanting to take my insulin, meds, or eat right went through my head, but when it came time to take my shots or not I just could not- not take my medicine. I resent my meds and needing the insulin, but now that I am on an insulin pump I feel confident that if we can conceive and raise my progesterone levels (majorly low during second miscarriage) then I have hope. It is my hope that keeps me going and I am afraid to lose that hope, so I cling to it with every fiber of my being.
I like to read the pregnancy success stories because they help give me hope that even with PCOS and diabetes we can achieve our miracle.
Many, many ((((hugs)))) again for all of your suffering.
Diana
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