I just don't understand why this had to happen to us. We lost our daughter last year and I am still so emotional. We have tryed 5 cycles with meds and nothing has happened. All of the money, pills, needles and emotional pain and still no baby. I knew that I wanted to be a mother since I was 5 yrs old. All I want to do is make my Husband a daddy and be a mommy myself. SO many people tell us that we can just adopt- but I was pregnant I deserve a baby of our own. I want to feel sick , and get sore bbs and feel like crap. I WANT to watch my body grow and change. I WANT to have a piece of me and my Husband and to bring that life here via MY womb. But it just feels like we are being punished for something. My Husband is perfect in the way of being able to make a baby- it's my fault that it is taking so long. I just don't know how many times will be enough to make us stop- maybe never. I saw this interesting slide show about the pain of ttc and loss and I thought that maybe I would make my own to help my un knowing family just feel like I am hurting. They all got pregnant at a blink of an eye and I have to suffer for whatever reason god has-.
I just wanted to vent the needles are hard to deal with and I will do anything to be a mom, its just hard some days
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Mother to my angel daughter Maila
Furbaby - Mr. Brownie
I'm so sorry to hear about your stuggles and your loss. It is really tough at times when you are trying so hard. (((Big Hugs)))
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*Twins born - June 3rd '08 - Alexa @ 2:04pm & Isabelle @ 2:28pm*
*SURPRISE - Pregnant w/out TRYING!
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Im so sorry for your loss and all the obstacles that is standing in the way and making your ttc journey allot harder and frusterating. (((((((((((HUGS)))))))))) Stay positive and dont give up!
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I'm so sorry hun!! It took 2 yrs ttc for our dd, 14 months on medications, so I know how frustrating it is to start each cycle new and hope for the best but prepare for the worst!
Hang in there! There IS an end in sight, even if you can't see it yet!! And when you are blessed with your little bundle of joy the months of trying and pills and needle sticks will all just melt into the background!!
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Thank you all so much! We have decided that we will NEVER give up. I feel so blessed to have this support and I know that one day I will be a mother -again-. I know that we will make it. we survive with love.
Sunshine 07- I will be praying for you! I hope that things happen for us too! we need our babies here on earth!
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Mother to my angel daughter Maila
Furbaby - Mr. Brownie
Warning: it is a tear jerker, and for some it may contain triggers, but is seems to have been done by someone who really knows the pain of loss and infertility, as we do......
Linda
2 m/c
edited to add: sorry I didn't realise it would link the actual video, I thought it would just show the web link. I hope it doesn't upset anyone, definitely not my intention..
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Reason: an apology...
Linda G- Thank you so much for that! I cried for a good twenty mintes after I watched that! It was very special to see that.
I am planing on making something similar to that for out families. We are only 20 and 21 but we are faced with this. PCO only will get worse- and our doctor recomends that we try now- but I don't want to be alone. I LOVE LOVE LOVE my Husband- but sometimes he is just a man- a man who is scared himself.
Once I get it together I will post it here for you all to see
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Mother to my angel daughter Maila
Furbaby - Mr. Brownie
Hi I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I did have trouble conceiving had IVF and got there in the end, altho I have not suffered loss like u, I had 2 embryos put in but only one stuck but I dont feel loss like you. I really dont know how anyone copes with that sort of pain. I have a friend who lost her 1st at 11 weeks, then had a boy who is 7 now, then had stillborn at 26 weeks. She had baby a year later another boy healthy. I asked her how the hell did she cope and her reply was God only gives u pain that u can cope with. Doesn't make any sence but that is what she said and that was someone who has been there. U will get there in the end and hope it is very soon. I dont know if u have any religion, but I am catholic and prayed to St. Gerard Majella, who is the patron saint of mothers. I am not very religious but I believe he helped, and science also. If you dont mind I will say a prayer to him for u. best of luck with it all x
I can understand the pain and frustration you are feeling......It took us forever and many many many needles to conceive our first and now the second is eluding us just as the first......yet people around me get pregnant by saying the word.......
Some days seem to go on and on....but hang in there and keep the positive vibes around you......
When you need to let it out ..we are here for you....
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ttc#2
dd - 11/03 repronex/IUI
Met-2000mg since 12/02
Multiple repronex/iui - since 2005
IUI 11/10/07 ++++HPT 11/26/07
12/10 -measuring 1 week behind - very worried
12/17-u/s - saw heartbeat....114bpm
1/8 u/s - no heartbeat....baby died at 7wks
1st ivf cycle - Nov 2008 - failed
2nd ivf cycle - Jan 2009 -failed
3rd ivf cycle - April 2009 - failed
4th ivf cycle - May 2009 - BFP
Beta: 581:2351:5081
6/26/09 u/s - TWINS - saw 2 heartbeats!!!
EDD 2/14/10
I am sorry for your loss too be a mommy, also very sorry for the loss of your little boy Petunia. How sad, eight months old. I cannot imagine that.
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PCOS and MF
TTC baby #1 since 2002
BFP March 2005!
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I'm sorry for your loss and the pain of fertility trouble! So many moms here have shared these struggles, that's why we are here to listen and understand. It stinks that there are so many of us, but when you need an understanding ear... seems like there's strength in numbers. I don't know what I would do without my cysters! Hang in there, sweetie.
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First pregnancy ended at 23 weeks due to incompetent cervix.
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Second loss March 9, 2004 at five weeks
Third pregnancy, Cerclage at 13w
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