I am so very tired

Lendi · 09-29-2002, 08:05 PM

I am so tired of dealing with everything. I stay awake at night because I don't want to face the next day, struggling to exist, to put on a happy face, to function. My mind is so numb, I can't even think right. I was so hoping the Lexapro would be the answer. Dr. says he doesn't know what to try next. He wants me to do the Remeron, but I can't afford to sleep days on end. It scares me, but maybe sleeping would be the best thing. At least I couldn't think. Will it ever end? I hate this existance!

taah · 09-30-2002, 04:47 AM

Lendi,,,

I am sorry you are having such a hard time finding the right meds for you.. I know how frustrating that can be... Don't give up, you will find something that works... it took me a while to finally find a combination of things that helped me.... I know you will to.... I wish you the best... Hopefully things will be better for you soon..

hugs,
TERRA

Lendi · 09-30-2002, 06:33 PM

Thanks, Jen and Terra. Friends are what keep me going. Sat was really rough. I had to fight hard to not run away. Sounds dumb coming from and adult. I don't even know where I would have ran too. Just far far away from everything and everyone as I could go. I really didn't care about the impact on anyone including myself. It made me really scared. This coming from a type A personality who was, and still is, married at 16, mother at 17, never been fired from a job or quit without another job waiting. Yesterday and today I've not done anything but sleep. Awake, maybe a total of 5 hrs yesterday and less so far today. I didn't want to miss work when I've only been there 7 wks, but I just couldn't do it. First time in years that I've slept past 9:00 and I didn't get up until 10:45 then went back to sleep on the couch by 11:00. Maybe I have a bug or something, I don't know but now I feel a little calmer. I just no longer care.
The Dr. says he has ran out of different ideas on what to do for me. Maybe I should find another Dr. I don't know that it is worth the effort.
Thanks for listening. Time for another nap. I hope it's a long one and when I wake up all will be well in the world again. Lendi