I don't know how to get my mind off of the negative. I went to the dr this afternoon and they said they would like to do a reevaluation of my anti-depresant. I have been on Paxil for about two years. Can it stop working like it was? What other RX would be better? I wish I could be like I used to be, confident, assured, happy, never letting anything bother me. What happened to the old me? How did I allow someone else effect me to the point of panic attacks, being afraid of phones and severe depression?!?! How can some one have that much power over me?
I know this all coming up because I feel like I am reliving my harassment/assault with recent events that happened to my DH. I live in the dream world where I think that racisim and hatred would not happen to us. I know that is stupid of me to say. I guess I am just naive.
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i often wonder where "the real me" went to as well. I used to be just like you...happy, confident, carefree, never really scared to try new things. And now I am so scared of the worst that I cant really be happy anymore. I am impatiently waiting for my health insurance to come back so that I can go back on my meds. I was taking Zoloft before and felt great. Even felt like the normal me. I dont know much about Paxil but I would say if your Dr wants to switch then it may be for the best. I hope things get better for you. If you even need to talk, let me know. email or pm me anytime. cherylanderica@yahoo.com
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Dr is suppose to call me on Monday to set up an appointment. I hate sitting in bed unable to sleep, thinking of all the stupid things I have said or done. Grrrr .... I hate feeling this way. My DH is so kind and just set his ring tone to 'darling angel' for when I call. He said we could go to a movie and do lunch tomorrow, of which we do not have the money for but I want to go. I told the dr today that I called my Grandma to come watch my DD yesterday because I needed a break. i never ask anyone to help with the baby. I feel she is my responsiblity. Though I know others are happy to help me out. Well i am going to try to get some sleep and survive the weejend until the dr calls on Monday.
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I am doing better this morning. Trying to be really positive, but negative stuff, dwelling on everything that happened is hard not to do. We went out and did some volunteer work this morning and I feeling much better, got my mind of off my problems and help others. I just have to realize that they only thing that matters is what Jehovah, God thinks of us, not a Judge or other people. We will deal with what happen with dignity and that is all that matters. Now I just have to believe it!
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I'm glad you're feeling better. You're going through a lot right now so it's perfectly understandable that you're getting anxiety symptoms. Hopefully things will get better as your situation improves.
One thing you might want to do when you start feeling anxious is remember to breathe. Breathe in slowly counting (slowly) 1, 2, 3, 4, 5 and then out with the same count (kind of like lamaze). If these feelings continue long term, in addition to drugs, or in place of, you might benefit from behavioral cognitive therapy for anxiety. This form of therapy stops your physical response to anxiety so you can let your rational mind take over.
Good luck and I hope things start looking up for you and your DH!
I was talking to the dr about that type of therapy and he said he would put a call in to the gal that does it. I wasn't so sure about it yesterday but then the more I thought out it the better I feel. i need to do something.
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It's a really great kind of therapy that has a really strong scientific basis. I would recommend it to anyone (and I feel like I have been)! I was amazed at how well it worked for me. I had to work hard at it though-- the place I went gave homework (practice breathing and feeling calm for 5 minutes a night kind of homework), and it was hard to find time, but completely necessary.
I am spiralling out of control?!?!?! 
