I don't think I can do this anymore. I feel like such a failure. It's like you try so hard to get where? I'm not going to say that it's not fair anymore, I already know that it's not so why keep saying it. I just don't understand what we did wrong? Do we not deserve to be parents? Are we such horrible people or would we be such horrible parents that we don't deserve to be? I broke down last night just thinking that we would have to pay $12,000/year for health insurance for just me w/ no guarantees that it would even be worth it. I've already checked around & all the major companies around here have self-funded health insurance which means that they don't have to cover IF and they don't. I'm totally stuck & it just s*cks.
Traci
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I'm sorry to hear you are so down today. We all hit bumps in the road where we feel like we can't go on with ttc anymore. My dh and I are just about at the end of our rope so we are looking into adoption. We just started seeing a new dr but we are only giving him until I turn 30 in Aug. If I'm not pg by then, China here we come.
I hope you feel better soon.
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I'm very sorry for everything you're going through. I just had a m/c myself and sometimes I feel the same way. (Like for some reason God doesn't want us to be parents) But, I try to keep positive. We have to, just to make it through the day. I try to think that God wants us to be parents because if he didn't he would've never allowed me to become pg. in the first place.
I don't really have any words of wisdom as I am in (sort of) the same boat. But, you are in my prayers and I hope everything works out great for you.
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Traci,
I just want to send you a big hug. We all have our moments, and then some moments look brighter, and then we might be back in the same place again. Just know that you are not alone.
Your friend,
Sheri
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First pregnancy ended at 23 weeks due to incompetent cervix.
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Second loss March 9, 2004 at five weeks
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move over and make way for your cysters...we're all here for you.
One thing i've learned from all of you...you included...when youre as low as you can get...theres no where else to go but up...
in the meantime...sending you big [[[[HUGS]]]]
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TTC#4 w/Injectibles-IVF conversion/CERCLAGE/6.2mo bedrest/emerg c-sec at 38wks
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Thanks everyone. I think I was going through a nervous breakdown or something yesterday... I'm still not 100% today but feeling alittle bit better.
I did go in this AM for b/w & my beta is down to 152 from 751 which is very ironic b/c @ 14DPO my beta was 152... I have to go back in 2 weeks for a repeat beta & then the middle of April to start RPL testing...I hope & pray that they find something wrong just to know it's not my body being crazy...
Traci
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2 fur kitties- 9 angels (Single Loss 05/03; Quad Loss 09/03-D&C; Twin Loss 02/04; Twin Loss 2004. All RPL testing "normal" No cause found ('05 & '09)
New Gonal-F cycle started 9/5/09- Cancelled 9/14/09 due to too many follies all growing the same (all under 10mm still) Started Soy 120mg CD12-16!
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I can't do this anymore... 
