I cant believe what my eyes are reading here. Everything you all say absolutly echos my thoughts!
How you all feel pretty when you have clothes on, hair done, makeup done, etc....but once thats all off and we go a day without plucking, shaving, waxing, etc....we feel like monsters!!!
I DO NOT wish how I feel and look to anyone else in this world, not even my worst enemy, but if feels good in a strange way that all of you can relate and go through what I am. If I could take it away from you all, I certainly would, its probably the worst thing a woman can possibley go through.
I am and have been depressed for years. I never got help, I never opened up to anyone....except for these boards. It was worse before, but I still and always felt like a freak, a monster. When you are out with all your friends who are beautiful, skinny and have guys draping all over them, it really sucks being in the background.
I finally found a wonderful boyfriend, for 8 months now. When we first met, he googled my user namer, which I use for lots boards and emails. Well what do you know, he found a post here! How embarassing it is to have a new boyfriend read about your PCOS problems from the start. After I let it set in, that he knows my dark secret, I gave him a website to read everything about it. Ya know what, he is still with me. However, because of my low self esteem because of this evil monster we call PCOS, I am insecure about him. He tells me how beautiful I am, and I tell him to stop, I dont see it. He gets really mad at me. I feel like how can he say that when I cant even stand looking at me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Not to get too personal, but I cant be naked in the light in front of him, I make him turn off the lights. I dont want him to discover this disgusting body underneath the clothes, with the fat, stretch marks, hair, etc. I am afraid of losing him, and its all PCOS' fault. This depresses me on a weekly basis.
Anyway, I completley understand what everyone of you is going through and I am ALWAYS happy to chat, email if anyone needs to vent, or talk.
Take Care!
Melissa
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Oh Melissa - as a single woman who feels EXACTLY the same way, it gives me such heart to hear that you have a lovely man who loves you anyway! It gives me hope that I'll find one too!
I have a guy been seeing for three months now .. apart from hair growth on body PLUS severe hair loss I dont see how he can fancy me ... I told him to leave me once because this alopecia is rapid ..
I wake up daily and I want to die
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I feel like down sometimes...well nearly at some everyday. Yes, it is hard work to keep the hair and weight at bay and yes sometimes we do feel like monsters.
But this group is the best
__________________ Hugs and much love from Clare *Been On Metaformin 1,500daily trying for another baby
We have all been there. I even went so far as to rationize that my husband must be a liar because he says that I'm beautiful. I don't feel that I am so that makes him a liar. I feel very uncomfortable when I get compliments.
I now know that self-esteem has to come from inside of me. But I didn't know how to get my thoughts to change. I started reading spiritual books because I knew that mind over matter is possible. Slowly I started to understand how affermations can transform you. For me it's been helpful.
I also started taking the insulite program. I just noticed that it is an advertizement on this site. These pills have been a life saver for me. I'm no longer depressed and alot of other symptoms have cleared up.
I too was on metformin and the side effects were not worth taking it.
I have a secret for you, You are beautiful and you are worthy of all the joy life has to offer. Cherish your relationship with a great Man that loves you for who you are and not how you look. We are programed to believe that they don't exist. But you are proof that they do.
I cant believe my eyes! 
