I don't even know where to begin....my story is so long...
I am 38 years old. I was married for 12 years. We couldn't get pregnant, didn't realize until recently it was b/c of PCOS. Low and behold after 10 years I showed up pregnant. To make a long story short-in my sixth month-I lost the baby. (Vincent Joseph). It was very traumatic, both mentally and physically-I won't go into details right now. I finally got help but was not the same. I started taking everything out on my husband - looked for reasons to blame him. I met a friend who showed me attention - what I thought I wasn't getting from my husband. I then found out my mother had cancer. I lost her 6 months later. More trauma. I decided to divorce my husband because "life was too short" to be miserable. I met a guy that I knew from High School. We have been dating ever since. I am not happy. He never wants to get married and does not want kids. EVER!!!
I thought I was ok with it...but I think I am not. It gets so hard now around the holiday's. I don't have children to celebrate with and it seems never will. I am still best friends with my ex-husband. I think now that I made the biggest mistake of my life - getting divorced. I am soooo down right now. I can't snap out of it this time....
I Cant Snap Out Of It!! 
